Everything's going to be fine? Really?
Hey dearest f-list,
time for some update, I just need to write about the current situation down and there's no better place than to do it here. Right. Now.
So, cut for more explicit ranting ...
You know, I haven't been feeling that well for some month. Nothing really bad, but lack of motivation, lack of confidence, lack of ... well, everything.
BUT - I see the light!
In fact, I got the feeling everything's really getting better by the minute and I'm just one step away from becoming my shiny happy self again.
I don't know if I'd told you that I had some major problems with the money. Or with the lack of it to be precise. Oh, I had enough to cover the rent and food and stuff but I just had nothing to spare. Not that I can't live on little money, I don't need much money. Really, I don't. If I did, I would've never chosen my job. Or I would've stayed with my Ex-BF and would've let him work for our living while I'm busy raising kids. But no, I chose happyness over money a long time ago.
But I hadn't considered that I wouldn't be happy if I can't spare a penny. I just want to be able to buy a fucking Vogue magazine without having to argue with the empty fridge first and then with the empty purse and then decide I rather buy a fucking bread! I don't like that! It doesn't make me happy! And I want to invite friends, you know, or going out to have some beer, or going to the movies - things like that. Nothing special, just be able to enjoy life not only live and that's it.
BUT since we have found a new partner to share our office with, I'll get more money from April on coz I will work for her too.
And added to that my best friend R. is going to move into my flat. It's not a 100% sure already, but I think she'll do it. She'd just cut-off with her BF. They haven't nailed all the details yet, so there's still a lot to sort out before making any further plan. But since I actually got a room to spare and my other room-mate doesn't mind, and R. can't afford to pay a high rent and every other alternative will cost her a lot more ... and then she's already seeing someone else and they're heading fast into a deeper relationship and he's got a house of his own and perhaps - in one year or so - they're likely to move together so ... but anyway it would be so perfect if she moves in ... We already got plans to start a business of our own together. Living together would make it easier since we have to try some things for the business together ... you see I don't want to talk about it yet. It really hasn't got the stability to be talked about already. It's still just an idea and we need to figure out if it'll work and therefore we're spending a lot of time together anyway. Oh, I hope she'll move in!!!! It would be so perfect!!!
And added to that her new BF (although they're not together yet, but they'll be soon) already offered to help us with settling our business and stuff. And really, I do believe we will make it, we'll do it!!
And added to that the situation of my sister is getting better and better. I was so much worrying about her and the kids. Since she got divorced she was forced to earn enough for her and the kids, because her Ex never paid on time and then just a small part from the sum they officially decided he's got to give to her. She always makes it on time somehow to pay the rent and feed the kids, but she's so exhausted and I can see that she's demanding to much strength and power from herself. She's constantly in a hurry and worrying. But now her BF said they should move in together and since he's got a house already why don't they move in together there. He wanted to sell it but hasn't found an investor yet so not to pay double the rent he thought it would be a good idea to move together. Thank heaven's! He's a sweetheart, the kids love him. He's so responsible and he will see to their every need. I am so so happy for her!
And I'm so happy for my best friend!
And I'm so happy for myself!
And I'm so hoping that everything's going to be fine.
But I still don't want to say it aloud. I hardly can't believe it myself yet.
So, that's it for the night, sleep well :-*
time for some update, I just need to write about the current situation down and there's no better place than to do it here. Right. Now.
So, cut for more explicit ranting ...
You know, I haven't been feeling that well for some month. Nothing really bad, but lack of motivation, lack of confidence, lack of ... well, everything.
BUT - I see the light!
In fact, I got the feeling everything's really getting better by the minute and I'm just one step away from becoming my shiny happy self again.
I don't know if I'd told you that I had some major problems with the money. Or with the lack of it to be precise. Oh, I had enough to cover the rent and food and stuff but I just had nothing to spare. Not that I can't live on little money, I don't need much money. Really, I don't. If I did, I would've never chosen my job. Or I would've stayed with my Ex-BF and would've let him work for our living while I'm busy raising kids. But no, I chose happyness over money a long time ago.
But I hadn't considered that I wouldn't be happy if I can't spare a penny. I just want to be able to buy a fucking Vogue magazine without having to argue with the empty fridge first and then with the empty purse and then decide I rather buy a fucking bread! I don't like that! It doesn't make me happy! And I want to invite friends, you know, or going out to have some beer, or going to the movies - things like that. Nothing special, just be able to enjoy life not only live and that's it.
BUT since we have found a new partner to share our office with, I'll get more money from April on coz I will work for her too.
And added to that my best friend R. is going to move into my flat. It's not a 100% sure already, but I think she'll do it. She'd just cut-off with her BF. They haven't nailed all the details yet, so there's still a lot to sort out before making any further plan. But since I actually got a room to spare and my other room-mate doesn't mind, and R. can't afford to pay a high rent and every other alternative will cost her a lot more ... and then she's already seeing someone else and they're heading fast into a deeper relationship and he's got a house of his own and perhaps - in one year or so - they're likely to move together so ... but anyway it would be so perfect if she moves in ... We already got plans to start a business of our own together. Living together would make it easier since we have to try some things for the business together ... you see I don't want to talk about it yet. It really hasn't got the stability to be talked about already. It's still just an idea and we need to figure out if it'll work and therefore we're spending a lot of time together anyway. Oh, I hope she'll move in!!!! It would be so perfect!!!
And added to that her new BF (although they're not together yet, but they'll be soon) already offered to help us with settling our business and stuff. And really, I do believe we will make it, we'll do it!!
And added to that the situation of my sister is getting better and better. I was so much worrying about her and the kids. Since she got divorced she was forced to earn enough for her and the kids, because her Ex never paid on time and then just a small part from the sum they officially decided he's got to give to her. She always makes it on time somehow to pay the rent and feed the kids, but she's so exhausted and I can see that she's demanding to much strength and power from herself. She's constantly in a hurry and worrying. But now her BF said they should move in together and since he's got a house already why don't they move in together there. He wanted to sell it but hasn't found an investor yet so not to pay double the rent he thought it would be a good idea to move together. Thank heaven's! He's a sweetheart, the kids love him. He's so responsible and he will see to their every need. I am so so happy for her!
And I'm so happy for my best friend!
And I'm so happy for myself!
And I'm so hoping that everything's going to be fine.
But I still don't want to say it aloud. I hardly can't believe it myself yet.
So, that's it for the night, sleep well :-*