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i am so tired.
wednesday was class 9am - 11pm.
thursday, 9am - 8pm.
today, up at 8am to finish burning my recording for the hart house concerto competition (the result of the recording process, by the way, is very... ummm.. interesting) which took a good 4 hours. i just got home from rehearsal 10 minutes ago, at 11:30pm, after getting to school at 2:30 this afternoon.
i'm heading out to ottawa tomorrow morning at a train leaving at 8am. i'm then coming back to toronto sunday morning at 8:30am for a rehearsal in the evening, since i can't guarantee the train leaving at noon will get in on time. monday, i have class from 9am until about 9pm, with NO BREAKS. tuesday is better but not by a lot -- class 2-9 solid, sans pause once again. this trend continues until approximately december 8.
oh, and we can't forget that somewhere in here i'm supposed to have enough time to a) learn the music for the zillion different things i'm doing, b) practice for my lesson so i don't embarrass myself, c) go to the gym to stay sane (and possibly stop gaining weight as i've been doing pretty voraciously in the last few weeks), d) eat, e) sleep, f) breathe, and deal with other such minute details.
i'm so busy and so exhausted that i'm forgetting things. i accidentally double booked my recording time yesterday with a rehearsal with my sonata partner. i showed up at quartet this evening an hour late because i thought they'd left when i couldn't find them in the building -- turns out they were in walter hall (the nice recital hall for you non-musickies), which would be a fairly obvious place to look had i remembered that it existed. i missed violin class this morning because i forgot about it. in salsa class this evening i was having trouble remembering steps even though we were going over them 60 million times as a review in case we didn't get them in the 60 million times LAST WEEK that we did the same ones.
in my lesson today i went to put my pencil back on the music stand after marking something in my part, and actually missed the stand altogether, ending in just dropping the pencil on the floor. my teacher, who is usually extremely deadpan and generally makes no sympathetic comment when/if she notices you're off personally (i can never tell if she notices because she never says anything), actually said, "wow, someone's a little tired today!" for those of you who don't know my teacher, this is saying something.
i don't understand how it's humanly possible to do all this crap and stay sane. somewhere in here i have to do my application for the verbier orchestra before the 15. i have to fill out a couple grad school applications so as not to shoot myself in the foot for next year, in case i decide not to take a year off (at this rate, i don't see that happening! a year to sleep??? hell yeah!). i have to make a press kit, learn italian before my midterm in a few weeks, write a spanish presentation on some topic yet to be determined, plus learn the stack of music waiting for me. i hate being forced into having to prepare for everything the night before because you just don't have enough hours in the day to learn it at a less frantic pace.
ugh.
and yet, somehow i'm finding the time to bitch about all this on here. ahhh irony.
wednesday was class 9am - 11pm.
thursday, 9am - 8pm.
today, up at 8am to finish burning my recording for the hart house concerto competition (the result of the recording process, by the way, is very... ummm.. interesting) which took a good 4 hours. i just got home from rehearsal 10 minutes ago, at 11:30pm, after getting to school at 2:30 this afternoon.
i'm heading out to ottawa tomorrow morning at a train leaving at 8am. i'm then coming back to toronto sunday morning at 8:30am for a rehearsal in the evening, since i can't guarantee the train leaving at noon will get in on time. monday, i have class from 9am until about 9pm, with NO BREAKS. tuesday is better but not by a lot -- class 2-9 solid, sans pause once again. this trend continues until approximately december 8.
oh, and we can't forget that somewhere in here i'm supposed to have enough time to a) learn the music for the zillion different things i'm doing, b) practice for my lesson so i don't embarrass myself, c) go to the gym to stay sane (and possibly stop gaining weight as i've been doing pretty voraciously in the last few weeks), d) eat, e) sleep, f) breathe, and deal with other such minute details.
i'm so busy and so exhausted that i'm forgetting things. i accidentally double booked my recording time yesterday with a rehearsal with my sonata partner. i showed up at quartet this evening an hour late because i thought they'd left when i couldn't find them in the building -- turns out they were in walter hall (the nice recital hall for you non-musickies), which would be a fairly obvious place to look had i remembered that it existed. i missed violin class this morning because i forgot about it. in salsa class this evening i was having trouble remembering steps even though we were going over them 60 million times as a review in case we didn't get them in the 60 million times LAST WEEK that we did the same ones.
in my lesson today i went to put my pencil back on the music stand after marking something in my part, and actually missed the stand altogether, ending in just dropping the pencil on the floor. my teacher, who is usually extremely deadpan and generally makes no sympathetic comment when/if she notices you're off personally (i can never tell if she notices because she never says anything), actually said, "wow, someone's a little tired today!" for those of you who don't know my teacher, this is saying something.
i don't understand how it's humanly possible to do all this crap and stay sane. somewhere in here i have to do my application for the verbier orchestra before the 15. i have to fill out a couple grad school applications so as not to shoot myself in the foot for next year, in case i decide not to take a year off (at this rate, i don't see that happening! a year to sleep??? hell yeah!). i have to make a press kit, learn italian before my midterm in a few weeks, write a spanish presentation on some topic yet to be determined, plus learn the stack of music waiting for me. i hate being forced into having to prepare for everything the night before because you just don't have enough hours in the day to learn it at a less frantic pace.
ugh.
and yet, somehow i'm finding the time to bitch about all this on here. ahhh irony.