Flashback upsets me
I'm alone in my room..
I hate to think of stuff and make myself unhappy.
But why do I always do that?
Miss Maslinda :: Everyone mention that you are over-confidence. You don't feel so? Every teacher SAID you ARE.
Mdm Rafilah :: You are not putting enough effort in everything you do. Look at your results? Didn't all the teachers tell you these?
Mum :: When are you going to study?
Dad :: Are you just listening to music all day? Did you even study?
Adults.
I don't feel like saying anything on their comments. It would only look like a self-defense, which is stupid.
Mum :: You never did show your feelings, how can anyone understand you? Not even I understand you.
Then why in the first place am I born if no one understand me? I hated the fact that I think too much, I hated the fact that I am the only child, I the fact that I cannot be happy.
Daniel :: Why does your journal sounds so morbid?
Though I don't like the sound of it, but it's true. Despite me trying to make it sounds more happy, I can't. Don't accused me that I've didn't try. I did. I hate being accused.
Ada :: You never tried hard. We know you can improve on your Chinese. You just didn't work hard. You're just lazy.
I've explained and told them many times. I didn't say I hate Chinese. I DID try my best, but to no avail. That's why I only decided to do well in my speech. Stop accusing me.
I hate school. I hate the teachers. I hate my classmates. But most of all... I hate myself.
I hate to think of stuff and make myself unhappy.
But why do I always do that?
Miss Maslinda :: Everyone mention that you are over-confidence. You don't feel so? Every teacher SAID you ARE.
Mdm Rafilah :: You are not putting enough effort in everything you do. Look at your results? Didn't all the teachers tell you these?
Mum :: When are you going to study?
Dad :: Are you just listening to music all day? Did you even study?
Adults.
I don't feel like saying anything on their comments. It would only look like a self-defense, which is stupid.
Mum :: You never did show your feelings, how can anyone understand you? Not even I understand you.
Then why in the first place am I born if no one understand me? I hated the fact that I think too much, I hated the fact that I am the only child, I the fact that I cannot be happy.
Daniel :: Why does your journal sounds so morbid?
Though I don't like the sound of it, but it's true. Despite me trying to make it sounds more happy, I can't. Don't accused me that I've didn't try. I did. I hate being accused.
Ada :: You never tried hard. We know you can improve on your Chinese. You just didn't work hard. You're just lazy.
I've explained and told them many times. I didn't say I hate Chinese. I DID try my best, but to no avail. That's why I only decided to do well in my speech. Stop accusing me.
I hate school. I hate the teachers. I hate my classmates. But most of all... I hate myself.