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on the real it doesnt matter whats been said or done,
how i feel? don't you know that you're the only one.
today is nancy's wedding i am super excited! my 3rd wedding of the year!
.....
-now time to be open about how i feel....
i am at the point where pain doesnt hurt me anymore, i just get
disappointed and i guess it accumulates because everytime things
start to hurt i just push it away so it wont hurt me anymore.
i hate that you can just get away with these things and i hate myself
even more cause i let you.
how will you ever learn?...my intentions ARE there its just hard to do.
they were workin for a bit but i am so 2sided...i know i dont deserve the shit you
do...but then i just love you so much and the situation just gets all clouded up n
forgiven.
when i give you chances, you break the promises leaving me with hopeless dreams
then you make it up somehow and what kills me is you get away with it so easily...
you say that if i stick around to show that "i care" it'll be better off this way.
but my heart is not capable of doing that...how could it?
then i think...im not going to start all over again. i am not capable of getting to know
someone knew... i just feel ICKY and grossed out...why? cause its not you.
so where does that leave me?
how i feel? don't you know that you're the only one.
today is nancy's wedding i am super excited! my 3rd wedding of the year!
.....
-now time to be open about how i feel....
i am at the point where pain doesnt hurt me anymore, i just get
disappointed and i guess it accumulates because everytime things
start to hurt i just push it away so it wont hurt me anymore.
i hate that you can just get away with these things and i hate myself
even more cause i let you.
how will you ever learn?...my intentions ARE there its just hard to do.
they were workin for a bit but i am so 2sided...i know i dont deserve the shit you
do...but then i just love you so much and the situation just gets all clouded up n
forgiven.
when i give you chances, you break the promises leaving me with hopeless dreams
then you make it up somehow and what kills me is you get away with it so easily...
you say that if i stick around to show that "i care" it'll be better off this way.
but my heart is not capable of doing that...how could it?
then i think...im not going to start all over again. i am not capable of getting to know
someone knew... i just feel ICKY and grossed out...why? cause its not you.
so where does that leave me?