A little less conversation
So far away from everyone and everything starts today. Let's keep it together. Can we keep it together? We're singing a new song now, and everything starts today...
I have to say, I really think that my feet are excessively cute. I got a much, much needed pedicure the other day and I've now promised myself that I will never go more than a month without getting one, even if it is the winter months and no one will see my chipped toe nails but me. There's a certain hygienical aspect to keeping well groomed feet and without that I don't quite feel myself.
And on that note, things with Brett and I are going tremendously better. I kind of feel like we're both finally letting go of our selfishness because really, the more that I think about it, we are two, at times, extremely selfish people and that's where a lot of the unhappiness was coming from. That and I'm starting to make changes to my life, changes that are more improvements, I guess. For one, Brett and I are going to church together every Sunday. Whether he, or anyone else, believes it or not it's something that will and already has strengthened us personally and as a couple. If nothing else, it's really mellowed him out to where he can just go and at least learn what religion has to offer. He was so deprived growing up in that sense because he hasn't even had the chance to be exposed to Christianity. And on the other end, I feel at home and secure going to church and just feeling what I know is true and what I grew up with. It makes me feel like a better, and more complete person. For a while now, I really haven't been doing anything wrong per-say (i.e. drinking, smoking, promiscuous sex, ex.) Ok, so I never had promiscuous sex, but even before I found out I was pregnant, Brett and I had cut that stuff out of our relationship, but that didn't mean I was doing the right thing, I just wasn't doing anything wrong. In all I think I feel better about starting a family now that I'm a little more focused on the future and how to make the best of things now instead of being stuck in the past.
Also, I registered for the three classes I will be taking this summer. I'm really excited to go back to school. Seriously, why I ever thought that working Monday through Friday at the Humble City Cafe instead of going to school would be a good thing, I'll never know. I dropped all of my classes six months ago to work full time and it has gotten me absolutely nowhere. I just hate my job even more than I did then because I'm there everyday. So, I'll be working nights again and going to school during the day. My goal is to get Government 1 and 2 and History 2 out of the way before the baby comes and then take a semester off with the baby before going back to school full time.
So, I'm looking forward to a pretty productive and challenging summer. I don't know if I'm sure what I'm getting myself into by enrolling in school when I'll be on the bigger end of my pregnancy, but we'll see what happens. Maybe my professors will bump my grades up because they feel bad that I have to waddle into class. That would definitely be cool.
I have to say, I really think that my feet are excessively cute. I got a much, much needed pedicure the other day and I've now promised myself that I will never go more than a month without getting one, even if it is the winter months and no one will see my chipped toe nails but me. There's a certain hygienical aspect to keeping well groomed feet and without that I don't quite feel myself.
And on that note, things with Brett and I are going tremendously better. I kind of feel like we're both finally letting go of our selfishness because really, the more that I think about it, we are two, at times, extremely selfish people and that's where a lot of the unhappiness was coming from. That and I'm starting to make changes to my life, changes that are more improvements, I guess. For one, Brett and I are going to church together every Sunday. Whether he, or anyone else, believes it or not it's something that will and already has strengthened us personally and as a couple. If nothing else, it's really mellowed him out to where he can just go and at least learn what religion has to offer. He was so deprived growing up in that sense because he hasn't even had the chance to be exposed to Christianity. And on the other end, I feel at home and secure going to church and just feeling what I know is true and what I grew up with. It makes me feel like a better, and more complete person. For a while now, I really haven't been doing anything wrong per-say (i.e. drinking, smoking, promiscuous sex, ex.) Ok, so I never had promiscuous sex, but even before I found out I was pregnant, Brett and I had cut that stuff out of our relationship, but that didn't mean I was doing the right thing, I just wasn't doing anything wrong. In all I think I feel better about starting a family now that I'm a little more focused on the future and how to make the best of things now instead of being stuck in the past.
Also, I registered for the three classes I will be taking this summer. I'm really excited to go back to school. Seriously, why I ever thought that working Monday through Friday at the Humble City Cafe instead of going to school would be a good thing, I'll never know. I dropped all of my classes six months ago to work full time and it has gotten me absolutely nowhere. I just hate my job even more than I did then because I'm there everyday. So, I'll be working nights again and going to school during the day. My goal is to get Government 1 and 2 and History 2 out of the way before the baby comes and then take a semester off with the baby before going back to school full time.
So, I'm looking forward to a pretty productive and challenging summer. I don't know if I'm sure what I'm getting myself into by enrolling in school when I'll be on the bigger end of my pregnancy, but we'll see what happens. Maybe my professors will bump my grades up because they feel bad that I have to waddle into class. That would definitely be cool.