talking
im going through SUCH an acoustic/emo phase right now. i just cant take hard core music right now. strange. i think seeing the bright eyes video for the first day of my life is what did it. its lovely. tea tea tea tea tea green tea. i really have no idea what im doing on here, or anywhere for that matter. AND i should be in bed. but alas, im stuck waiting for him to come online....crap. good lord i love high speeeeed.
you know what i would hate. i would hate for someone to hate me (no that i dont mind, but im not done yet) and i keep on talking to tem like it aint no thang (its midnight shut up) and id never know if they go home and think, i fucking want to kill that stupid lame vanessa girl. and then the next day, again! so i dont know, i dont want to say, hey everyone! if you hate me, let me know! because then i would get this slew (ya i said it) or comments from EVERYONE saying that they hated me, and that would make me sad. so ill stop typing about this. but hey, wouldnt it suck?
i have no friends on here and i want to find people that i know but its so hard, and i need patience. god
i dont talk to anyone, ever. well kind of. some persons. they knwo who they are and they shall remain nameless. but honestly i go on msn and have tons of people on it and i never actually talk to them. well maybe because a normal conversation would go something lie this:
Hey.
Hi.
Whats up?
Not Much. you?
Not Much
........
FIN
so maybe thats why i dont try. and i only talk to people when i need something from them on msn. like wow. im horrible. it seems like im using people...maybe i am i dont know. i suck!
holy shit
this is going to be highly addictive i can tell, and itll probably ruin some lives.
Ness <3 not you
you know what i would hate. i would hate for someone to hate me (no that i dont mind, but im not done yet) and i keep on talking to tem like it aint no thang (its midnight shut up) and id never know if they go home and think, i fucking want to kill that stupid lame vanessa girl. and then the next day, again! so i dont know, i dont want to say, hey everyone! if you hate me, let me know! because then i would get this slew (ya i said it) or comments from EVERYONE saying that they hated me, and that would make me sad. so ill stop typing about this. but hey, wouldnt it suck?
i have no friends on here and i want to find people that i know but its so hard, and i need patience. god
i dont talk to anyone, ever. well kind of. some persons. they knwo who they are and they shall remain nameless. but honestly i go on msn and have tons of people on it and i never actually talk to them. well maybe because a normal conversation would go something lie this:
Hey.
Hi.
Whats up?
Not Much. you?
Not Much
........
FIN
so maybe thats why i dont try. and i only talk to people when i need something from them on msn. like wow. im horrible. it seems like im using people...maybe i am i dont know. i suck!
holy shit
this is going to be highly addictive i can tell, and itll probably ruin some lives.
Ness <3 not you