Husband rant...read at your own risk!
I wish I could just back-hand my husband! He is such a jerk! He decided that it was not neccesary to wake me up this morning...even though i have to take him to work and Logan to school...since we are now down to one car. I finally woke up at 7:38 am...and we have to leave the house at 7:45...I have to get up, get dressed, put in my contacts, change Zahn, finish getting Logan ready, get a jacket on Zahn (cause it has been chilly in the morning)and get everyone out the door and in the car.....When I asked him why he didnt wake me up.. he said " I had to get myself ready!"...WTF? He could not take 2 seconds to shake me? He is the most self centered guy I know...but he hasnt always been that way...just since we had Zahn...He wonders why we dont have sex all the time...Well......if he was nice to me...I might be turned on by him...but why would I want to make love to someone who is conceided jerk? I even tell him that if he is nice to me...we will have sex...but that is too hard for him! I love making love to him...we "fit" so well together...and it is great! More than great...it is fantastic...(which is odd cause i am the first person he has ever slept with...)..But I cant sleep with someone who treats me like I am his " hired help" (of couse w/o the pay!) He even had the nerve to tell me that I could not make it w/o him...what kind of crap is that? I told him...I can live and make it w/o him...I just dont want to! Then he told me that no matter what he would always support me and the kids..even if we werent togther cause he dosnt want to be a "loser" for a father...tooo late!!! I know I will never divorice him (unless he cheats)..and I know we should get counseling..but money is tight right now...and I love him with all my heart (even though it feels broken right now).. We will make it...it will just take some time...he just needs to learn how to talk to me and open up! I just hope he apoligises to me...cause I have been crying all morning!