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so hey....
shits good i suppose...
i really fucking miss victor... its getting out of control its been like
2 weeks since i've seen the person i'm in love with...
thats just fucking ridiculous.... and not fair...
besides that.. yesturday i got my wisdom teeth removed...
jesus fucking christ what a horrible experience.
i woke up crying for victor.
i feel so depressed and angry lately... i'm not in a good mood at all..
i dont even knwo what to blame it on... i guess i can blame it on the changing of the season...
i feel like i have this great big gapping hole in me.. a void thats growing bigger.
it is actually physically starting to hurt me. i'm weak and very emotional...
i'm breaking out in random bruising.. and i have radom ass screaming fits...
not to metion i've been taking this all out on the wrong person.
i'm really sorry to my boo... i've been verbally abusing him.. and its not fair..
he is the only one that truely cares about me... and he always gets bitched out by me.
its not becuz i'm mad at him or anything remotely close to that... hence why i feel bad.
i guess i'm mainly depressed becuz i cant see him...
and also come to think of it... this is around the time of year my grandfather passed...
no wonder i'm in such a shitty mood... wow... i knew there was some underlying reason for it.
i wish my grandpa was still alive so i could introduce him to the boy i'm going to spend the rest of my life with.
i wish my grandpa was still alive.
shits good i suppose...
i really fucking miss victor... its getting out of control its been like
2 weeks since i've seen the person i'm in love with...
thats just fucking ridiculous.... and not fair...
besides that.. yesturday i got my wisdom teeth removed...
jesus fucking christ what a horrible experience.
i woke up crying for victor.
i feel so depressed and angry lately... i'm not in a good mood at all..
i dont even knwo what to blame it on... i guess i can blame it on the changing of the season...
i feel like i have this great big gapping hole in me.. a void thats growing bigger.
it is actually physically starting to hurt me. i'm weak and very emotional...
i'm breaking out in random bruising.. and i have radom ass screaming fits...
not to metion i've been taking this all out on the wrong person.
i'm really sorry to my boo... i've been verbally abusing him.. and its not fair..
he is the only one that truely cares about me... and he always gets bitched out by me.
its not becuz i'm mad at him or anything remotely close to that... hence why i feel bad.
i guess i'm mainly depressed becuz i cant see him...
and also come to think of it... this is around the time of year my grandfather passed...
no wonder i'm in such a shitty mood... wow... i knew there was some underlying reason for it.
i wish my grandpa was still alive so i could introduce him to the boy i'm going to spend the rest of my life with.
i wish my grandpa was still alive.