*//..We're not 21. but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun begins.

[nessa_m]

I was up till 3 last night. Crying and looking over old pictures. Thinking about how fun the past was and how horrible the now is. I just wish i could go back to the fairwood or rl graham days when everything was so simple. i have cried three days in a row. and its just because i miss the past. but i need to catch up to the future. But everything is just so fucked. I miss my old best friends. I miss michelle. I miss sam. But i love the friends i hang out with now more then anything. I trust Gordon with anything and everything. Man, I love's her. Shes awesome. And even though we pick on foster..lol. quite a bit. I still love her tons! and i trust her so much too! And jocelyn. I've talked to her about every fucking thing thats been wrong with me in the past months, and she talked to me. I've created bonds that i could never break, but i want the old ones back too ): fucking shiat i dont know what to do anymore. blah. These feeling will pass soon, but for the moment i just wish someone was here with me. but of couse im allll alone in moi house. ): this is all so effing depressing. Thanks to everyone for listening...i love yah all.
<3Nessa

[I believe in yesterday]