I hate you, and you, and you, and you.

[nessa_m]

I fucking hate some people. You cant fucking seem to trust anyone with anything these days. They always seem to fuck you over, and break your trust or break your heart. And its all bullshit. And i wish people could have a little more respect. If someone tells you a secret, and you tell someone. atleast tell the person you told. Have a little backbone and dont hide like a little bitch. cause thats just pathetic. I seem to have a lot of issues the past couple months with trusting people and having them make me feel like shit.blah. no wonder i have issues with trust. I cant really seem to find anyone i can trust with everything. feelings. Secrets. my heart. Everything is bullshit and at this age nothing seems to go the way you want it to. You can try as hard as you'd like. life is just a big let down so far. You want thinks you cant have. people you cant have. you get backstabbed. lied to. make friends. break friends. hate people. its all so fucked up, and the only way to truly escape is death. and i dont feel like dying. this is one of the times where i feel like i should hurt myself and make everything else numb. but im not going to. i just wish there was another option. I could talk to someone, but i couldn't trust them not to tell anyone. so thats off the idea list. The only thing i've got to do is write my thoughts here. and well this helps alot. alot of things are bothering me tonight. i still like nick alot and i fucking hate that. i want to, but i dont want to. and i kinda like pat. and i think jerrine likes him. and i dont know what the fuck to do anymore. blah. i fucking hate life.

*ahem* .."taylor is super sexy and has a huge package"
there we go.