my summer thus far
its been a few weeks!
I started my internship last week and i really like it. its so awesome here, the ppl are amazing and SO nice and helpful. and the labs are so beautiful! argh, theres so much i could say about it but you would get bored or not know what the heck im talking about so ill just sum it up to say that i am really happy here. theres a medicinal chemistry (the department im in) softball tournament this friday, so im signed up to play in that. its been forever since i played softball so i hope i dont throw like girl or look like a total 'tard.
as much as i like it down here, its still hard for me tho. theres just ALOT of things im adjusting to. like, theres so much cool stuff to do down by the beach where i live, but whats the point of doing it alone? and lynda, that gal im staying with, shes never home when im home cuz she has classes at night. my shcedule is wake up at five, be at work by 7, stay til four or lil later, hit the gym for couple hrs and then have dinner and shower. by that time i have like 1 hr free time before i have to go to bed by like 10 latest otherwise im a zombie for the next day. i feel like a robot and im just not used to being by myself and not with everyone that i love. i think i know that i wouldnt be able to go AWAY to grad school, like on the east coast. that would be too hard for me i think. hmmmm, what else has been wearing me down? coming home. its good to see everyone, but like my room isnt my room anymore. i dont like that, cuz that says to me that im gone...but i'm not! ive just been sick of myself and physically sick too- just nauseous and queasy(esp after i eat). i dont know, ive just been so tense, and anxious lately and im still trying to pinpoint why. not trying to sound depressed cuz im not, this is all just way different for me. alot of conflicting emotions but ill sort it all out and be good soon. i just need to be thankful for all these great things that God has put before me and get over that other stuff.
oh man, one of the other interns, kristen, she just came up to me and said she has to take me to this club. and she said she needs to get me a fake id. ?!?! help! hopefully she'll forget about it or ill be gone the next time she wants to go. shes pretty nice tho, shes learning to surf so we made some plans to go together next time im staying down here for the weekend.
hmmmm....what else. im jsut in the lab right now on my laptop ;p whilst my two reactions that i set up this morning are running. think im gonna go snag a snack and some coffee to wake me up a bit, cuz my stomach is growling.
have a WONDERFUL day!
I started my internship last week and i really like it. its so awesome here, the ppl are amazing and SO nice and helpful. and the labs are so beautiful! argh, theres so much i could say about it but you would get bored or not know what the heck im talking about so ill just sum it up to say that i am really happy here. theres a medicinal chemistry (the department im in) softball tournament this friday, so im signed up to play in that. its been forever since i played softball so i hope i dont throw like girl or look like a total 'tard.
as much as i like it down here, its still hard for me tho. theres just ALOT of things im adjusting to. like, theres so much cool stuff to do down by the beach where i live, but whats the point of doing it alone? and lynda, that gal im staying with, shes never home when im home cuz she has classes at night. my shcedule is wake up at five, be at work by 7, stay til four or lil later, hit the gym for couple hrs and then have dinner and shower. by that time i have like 1 hr free time before i have to go to bed by like 10 latest otherwise im a zombie for the next day. i feel like a robot and im just not used to being by myself and not with everyone that i love. i think i know that i wouldnt be able to go AWAY to grad school, like on the east coast. that would be too hard for me i think. hmmmm, what else has been wearing me down? coming home. its good to see everyone, but like my room isnt my room anymore. i dont like that, cuz that says to me that im gone...but i'm not! ive just been sick of myself and physically sick too- just nauseous and queasy(esp after i eat). i dont know, ive just been so tense, and anxious lately and im still trying to pinpoint why. not trying to sound depressed cuz im not, this is all just way different for me. alot of conflicting emotions but ill sort it all out and be good soon. i just need to be thankful for all these great things that God has put before me and get over that other stuff.
oh man, one of the other interns, kristen, she just came up to me and said she has to take me to this club. and she said she needs to get me a fake id. ?!?! help! hopefully she'll forget about it or ill be gone the next time she wants to go. shes pretty nice tho, shes learning to surf so we made some plans to go together next time im staying down here for the weekend.
hmmmm....what else. im jsut in the lab right now on my laptop ;p whilst my two reactions that i set up this morning are running. think im gonna go snag a snack and some coffee to wake me up a bit, cuz my stomach is growling.
have a WONDERFUL day!