it depresses me, to see you struggle
i think its really over.
i lost my bestest friend in the entire world.
not the first time its happend, but the first time its ever hurt so much.
all i did was tell him the truth
i KNOW the distance that will soon come between us would kill me.
im already so emotionally drained.
i wish he just saw that i did it all for him
i only believe that it will make it so much easier for him.
once he gets to cali, hes gonna be fine and dandy without me
Katie will make him happier than ever, and he'll be happy just being there with her.
and im still gonna be here with no shoulder to cry on.
call it selfish if you must
but im only sorry that i know what its like for someone to move so far away
so excuse me for caring so much
but i've learned to "treat others the way you'd like to be treated".
id only want for him to do the same
but thats because i understand why hes doing it
he doesn't, and knowing that theres nothing i can do about it
totally sucks.
don't get my wrong
its even harder for me to do
but i know it'd be so much harder if i didn't do it now.
i may be wrong, but now ill never know
considering the facts.
im more than positive he's blocked me on AIM.
pretty middle schoolish. but w/e.
like i said, its my fault.
its so depressing though
i don't see the point in me getting online much anymore
so i probably won't.
i just wish, i could find something positive in this whole situation.
just like the gov/eco teacher in feris bueller said "anybody, anyone?"
i lost my bestest friend in the entire world.
not the first time its happend, but the first time its ever hurt so much.
all i did was tell him the truth
i KNOW the distance that will soon come between us would kill me.
im already so emotionally drained.
i wish he just saw that i did it all for him
i only believe that it will make it so much easier for him.
once he gets to cali, hes gonna be fine and dandy without me
Katie will make him happier than ever, and he'll be happy just being there with her.
and im still gonna be here with no shoulder to cry on.
call it selfish if you must
but im only sorry that i know what its like for someone to move so far away
so excuse me for caring so much
but i've learned to "treat others the way you'd like to be treated".
id only want for him to do the same
but thats because i understand why hes doing it
he doesn't, and knowing that theres nothing i can do about it
totally sucks.
don't get my wrong
its even harder for me to do
but i know it'd be so much harder if i didn't do it now.
i may be wrong, but now ill never know
considering the facts.
im more than positive he's blocked me on AIM.
pretty middle schoolish. but w/e.
like i said, its my fault.
its so depressing though
i don't see the point in me getting online much anymore
so i probably won't.
i just wish, i could find something positive in this whole situation.
just like the gov/eco teacher in feris bueller said "anybody, anyone?"