Fed Up With Life
aaaand im done with band. i just found out that i was moved down from conservatory to intermediate level.. which aside from really fucking up me with colleges especially UC colleges because they rely on the honor system with classes and grades and i pretty much just lied unwittingly to them about this. the only reason i kept semi caring about band was i thought i was still in conservatory but now that i'm not i have no reason to even remotely care about band. we had a good 3 years, we won a lot of shit, we did a lot of great shit. but frankly the talent in the band has sorely gone down and really no one cares about it anymore. The C's have made people hate band, Jay, Phil, Leo, etc. and Me. even though i love music, i hate the band environment in gulliver. i used to love it, it used to be a place where i could express myself, now its just a hell hole. C is trying to live vicariously through us, he is trying to relive his 'perfect band' childhood where everyone in his band when he was in highschool were probably a bunch of chinese losers who were probably recruited for music, but in gulliver, people only do it because a) their parents force them or b) they think it looks good for college. the moving down to intermediate has been my last straw especially the reasoning behind it. Joe was sick for a month, well, has been sick since October, so therefore since he is sick and cannot play his instrument he should be moved down. It makes perfect sense. really they are just assholes for doing that and not even having any empathy. and really ive started to notice how ignorant and stupid Mrs. C really is. I knew her younger brother A.J. was an idiot and i see it rubbed off on her, she of course is a dumb blonde. She tries to compensate for this by trying to authoritize upon others. she really has no real intelligence, she doesn't understand simple musical things such as 'tuning' she tries to tell people that are trying to tune to shut up, she tries to shut up me (a section leader) from telling the people next to me something about the music, something C actually told me to do. and really sometimes i just want to punch her, and im sure one day i will. she is a nice person when she feels like she is not in threat of feeling inferior which occurs often when she is cornered by people that are more intelligent then her. and i really agree with danny or was it carolina, well whoever it was, that Mr. C is only making a big deal out of this whole section leader thing and leadership shit because he wants to defer blame off of himself. He wants someone to blame even though the fault inevitably falls upon himself, but he does this to make himself feel better. He expects me to make 6 people who don't even know how to play the trumpet and make them experts, well that just isnt going to happen, especially if i dont care how we sound. i know we suck i have accepted that, so why even try. I have let casey pretty much take over the playing because i just don't care. if he calls me in one of his little section leader meetings i will be ecstatic, because i will call him out on him trying to defer blame upon others, and then if he tries to make me not section leader say that i actually chose to quit section leader when he moved me down to intermediate considering its his own rules that a section leader must be in adv. or conserv. or some shit thing like that. music really has greatly affected my grades and schooling this year, being as it has taken a considerably part of my week up, and i dont even practice. 2 hours every tuesday, actulaly 3 if u considering going and coming home. then 3 hours a month with sectionals and shit, and then an hour a month for music club, an hour a month for fucking forums. and of course the waste of time that is Band. the shit that really pisses me off is the after school shit, i have things to do after school, like this week with the forum was a bad idea, i had minimum of 8 hours a night for just college alone to do this past week, and that just took 2 hours out of it. and then after school is when i work on engineering but he wont let me do that, and engineering is far more important than band to me considering it helps me get into college, band.. does not. and im sorry to sound superficial here but right now i am only doing things considering college, i could care less about highschool obligations and only about getting into college. until january that will be my stance. oh ya and now he wants to get me and casey to do orchestra.. well casey can do that, i have better shit to do than spend my thursday nights at a school i hate. and i am really debating quitting jazz band, i never signed up for it, never wanted to be in it this year, i knew it would be bad, yet i am forced in it, casey already knows all the first part there is no reason for me to be in it. and if he gives me one more bad grade in jazz band i will first say that he is grading unfairly because i am in intermediate whcih is a non honors class then proceed to quit if he doesnt waver. ive sat idly by long enough, and i am fed up, i am fed up with this whole school..
dont even get me started on the idiocracy of Taintor. an incompitent chemistry teacher who teaches to have something to do during the day because he is a millionaire from praying off of firestone for a tire blow out. and his stupid announcement friday 'don't leave your bags lying around, don't bring phones on campus or ipods' oh yeah thats great, the great and powerful gulliver is relying on a hands off approach, instead of spending money on actual security they blame the recent stealings on the victims. i find that laughable that gulliver tries to defer the blame of their incompitence in security by blaming it on those who got their things stolen. considering i got my things stolen outside the band room, a place where i can't not 'leave my bag lying around' they are just horrible. i prefer if we had security guards that a) didn't look like catfish and b) had higher than an 8th grade education. instead i have to get stopped at the gate every time i come in because apparently i look like a terrorist or something. really i get pissed at them and actually argue with them whenever i come in and they stop me. i say i go to gulliver let me in now, i have things to do, and they mumble to themselves and let me in. catfish confronted me a couple of weeks ago and i just flat out todl him, you are wrong. and walked away. really at the end of the year i want to do a prank. not on gulliver becuase i loath gulliver so much i wouldnt even spend the time pranking them. but rahter pranking the security guards. i would actually call it a prank rather than a petty crime. like i dont know slashing their tires, keying their car, and then leaving a note saying "you should be more vigilant" and knowing them and the pinecrest police department they will never find any leads. but oh wait apparently our IT department are a bunch of graduates from Caltech and Stanford so they can hack into Facebook. that comment was laughable i actually laughed outloud last monday at taintor's speech about our It department. i found out how they do it, they have a program that can catch passwords off the network but they can only catch them if u type them in, so kids dont go on facebook at school. or if u do change ur password to something like AikE8Jm72l and they wont be able to crack it, thats what Caltech does so shit wont be hacked. our IT department couldnt even sign onto the internet much less sign onto Facebook. anywho i finally understand why my Dad hates gulliver con un passion, and so does my mom .. my mom hates it becuase its antiquated and shitty and they pay their teachesr horribly (wonder why we have shitty teachers.. its the money) my dad just because he understands the amount of profit this nonprofit organization makes.
dont even get me started on the idiocracy of Taintor. an incompitent chemistry teacher who teaches to have something to do during the day because he is a millionaire from praying off of firestone for a tire blow out. and his stupid announcement friday 'don't leave your bags lying around, don't bring phones on campus or ipods' oh yeah thats great, the great and powerful gulliver is relying on a hands off approach, instead of spending money on actual security they blame the recent stealings on the victims. i find that laughable that gulliver tries to defer the blame of their incompitence in security by blaming it on those who got their things stolen. considering i got my things stolen outside the band room, a place where i can't not 'leave my bag lying around' they are just horrible. i prefer if we had security guards that a) didn't look like catfish and b) had higher than an 8th grade education. instead i have to get stopped at the gate every time i come in because apparently i look like a terrorist or something. really i get pissed at them and actually argue with them whenever i come in and they stop me. i say i go to gulliver let me in now, i have things to do, and they mumble to themselves and let me in. catfish confronted me a couple of weeks ago and i just flat out todl him, you are wrong. and walked away. really at the end of the year i want to do a prank. not on gulliver becuase i loath gulliver so much i wouldnt even spend the time pranking them. but rahter pranking the security guards. i would actually call it a prank rather than a petty crime. like i dont know slashing their tires, keying their car, and then leaving a note saying "you should be more vigilant" and knowing them and the pinecrest police department they will never find any leads. but oh wait apparently our IT department are a bunch of graduates from Caltech and Stanford so they can hack into Facebook. that comment was laughable i actually laughed outloud last monday at taintor's speech about our It department. i found out how they do it, they have a program that can catch passwords off the network but they can only catch them if u type them in, so kids dont go on facebook at school. or if u do change ur password to something like AikE8Jm72l and they wont be able to crack it, thats what Caltech does so shit wont be hacked. our IT department couldnt even sign onto the internet much less sign onto Facebook. anywho i finally understand why my Dad hates gulliver con un passion, and so does my mom .. my mom hates it becuase its antiquated and shitty and they pay their teachesr horribly (wonder why we have shitty teachers.. its the money) my dad just because he understands the amount of profit this nonprofit organization makes.