(sad)
Thanks sooo so much everyone that answered my call for help! It was such a relief to get your advise. I was really starting to feel resigned (in a good way) to getting a new family member. With the good vibes and advise, I was really thinking it could be done and be alright.
Unfortunately, only hours before we were going to pick up the kitten, the current owner emailed to say that someone else was going to take her. She and her brother. So really it's best for the kitten. And it was more than a week that the mom and I were negotiating, more then a week where I was sick and couldn't even meet the kitten. The other couple could pick them both up right away. In many ways it's so much better for the kittens, they won;t be separated, and they will have a new home (not living in the basement) very soon.
But I'm pretty heart broken about it.
I also feel that my hesitation, my worry, caused fate to step in and take the kitten away from me. I know that's dumb. Really really dumb. But it really is how I feel. I can't help thinking that if I had just emailed her last night instead of this morning, I would have changed her mind and she would have saved the kitten for me. If I'd been more timely...
And on the other hand, we would have separated the siblings. And that would be sad. I hadn't even thought of that before this happened.
I can't really reason why I'm so sad about losing something that was never mine.
Unfortunately, only hours before we were going to pick up the kitten, the current owner emailed to say that someone else was going to take her. She and her brother. So really it's best for the kitten. And it was more than a week that the mom and I were negotiating, more then a week where I was sick and couldn't even meet the kitten. The other couple could pick them both up right away. In many ways it's so much better for the kittens, they won;t be separated, and they will have a new home (not living in the basement) very soon.
But I'm pretty heart broken about it.
I also feel that my hesitation, my worry, caused fate to step in and take the kitten away from me. I know that's dumb. Really really dumb. But it really is how I feel. I can't help thinking that if I had just emailed her last night instead of this morning, I would have changed her mind and she would have saved the kitten for me. If I'd been more timely...
And on the other hand, we would have separated the siblings. And that would be sad. I hadn't even thought of that before this happened.
I can't really reason why I'm so sad about losing something that was never mine.