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so I went to see Thoroughly Modern Millie at WHS on saturday night. it was, of course, astounding, and Dustin & I even dragged Matt along. he seemed to quite enjoy it, but you'd have been nuts not to. Chelsea bawled like a baby because she didn't get to be in this production, and it was her last chance to be involved in a drama performance in high school. I'm actually very very surprised how okay I was about being unable to be involved in it... I'm bothered more by the fact that I don't even feel like I belong in Westfield anymore, even though it's still where I want to be most.
which reminds me that we're only a week away from our very last performance as well. I'll probably bawl like a baby myself because I know our performances will be nothing compared to the worst of Westfield's and because I am in a place I still can't really call home, even after over a year. I can't say I don't like it here, because I'd be crazy to dislike being in a place where I am apparently the most talented and promising young woman of all time. I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore, and I'm probably going to be quite upset at the performances because I will be quite aware that the night should be so much more than it will be.
which reminds me that we're only a week away from our very last performance as well. I'll probably bawl like a baby myself because I know our performances will be nothing compared to the worst of Westfield's and because I am in a place I still can't really call home, even after over a year. I can't say I don't like it here, because I'd be crazy to dislike being in a place where I am apparently the most talented and promising young woman of all time. I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore, and I'm probably going to be quite upset at the performances because I will be quite aware that the night should be so much more than it will be.