High ends of low..
The past (almost) 2 weeks were a true emotional rollercoaster ride. From the happiness I'm getting from my relationship, to the confusion of it. And back from intense joy, to tears of deep fears and loss.
I've been scared that the C got it's hold on me once again. Because of that, I've been very ill from worrying. Not only worries about my health, but also what it would do to my relationship. After that, I went to THUNDERDOME with my brother. Niels was there too and we've had an amazing time there!! Once we got home, mom called us to say that our beloved horse would be put to sleep 2 days later. We were devastated, but at the same time we were still on "party-mode". But, like you can probably imagine, we couldn't really have laughs and looking back on the amazing party we just got home from wasn't much either. My love came over to support me, which was amazingly sweet of him! Cause I realized that I was partly ruining his after-the-party fun too. But he came over anyway and that really made me happy!!
Last week was pure, love and nothing else but those two things. Of course I did a lot of crying, but believe it or not, Niels stayed by my side even then! He even came with me Tuesday, to say our last goodbyes to my oh so beloved, lifetime long, friend (horse). My last wish was that Eek would see Niels and how happy he makes me. To make him see that everything was good and that he wouldn't have to worry about me, so he could go in peace. My love joined me in this and I'll always be thankful that he did! It means the world to me that he came with me to be there for me and my horse. :')
The days that followed, crying alternated with nothing but love love LOVE. I simply can not tell you how happy this boy is making me. He is my everything. He has my entire heart in his hands.
I'm going to make breakfast for my love now.. I'm leaving you with my wishes for you to have a lovely X-mess!! And a picture of my lovely one and I, taken @ THUNDERDOME.
I've been scared that the C got it's hold on me once again. Because of that, I've been very ill from worrying. Not only worries about my health, but also what it would do to my relationship. After that, I went to THUNDERDOME with my brother. Niels was there too and we've had an amazing time there!! Once we got home, mom called us to say that our beloved horse would be put to sleep 2 days later. We were devastated, but at the same time we were still on "party-mode". But, like you can probably imagine, we couldn't really have laughs and looking back on the amazing party we just got home from wasn't much either. My love came over to support me, which was amazingly sweet of him! Cause I realized that I was partly ruining his after-the-party fun too. But he came over anyway and that really made me happy!!
Last week was pure, love and nothing else but those two things. Of course I did a lot of crying, but believe it or not, Niels stayed by my side even then! He even came with me Tuesday, to say our last goodbyes to my oh so beloved, lifetime long, friend (horse). My last wish was that Eek would see Niels and how happy he makes me. To make him see that everything was good and that he wouldn't have to worry about me, so he could go in peace. My love joined me in this and I'll always be thankful that he did! It means the world to me that he came with me to be there for me and my horse. :')
The days that followed, crying alternated with nothing but love love LOVE. I simply can not tell you how happy this boy is making me. He is my everything. He has my entire heart in his hands.
I'm going to make breakfast for my love now.. I'm leaving you with my wishes for you to have a lovely X-mess!! And a picture of my lovely one and I, taken @ THUNDERDOME.