voids and other things
im still a little wierd feeling about how that whole thing went down.
not sure if i should have talked to him afterwards.
but i felt disgusted/embarassed/angry/etc.
needed a little time to shake it off not to mention have it cool
off with josh.
i'm still not drinking by the way.
maybe its a good thing we aren't friends anymore.
im assuming we aren't friends anymore.
when you are good friends with someone and they delete you from their myspace and don't say anything to you i think it means something.. i know its just myspace but people treat it like a burn factor, know what i mean?
well whatever the case may be, my feelings aren't hurt but im a little suprised.
other than that.
i wouldnt say my life is going well but its moving along.
not progressing just.. you know.. going day by day.
getting by, whatever.
i'm trying to be more independent but when you become independent on
someone you are with and you live with its hard. its like i almost have to take a step backward. i actually feel like i have to distance myself from him and maybe harden my feelings a little bit to become more independent. it doesnt really makes sense but im confused. how can you be in a year or more relationship with someone.. live with them.. and hear them say they want a more relxed and independent relationship. this does NOT mean an open relationship. i dont know how to deal with that. since it all happened so fast and yeah. it would definitely be a step backward for me. hopefully soon i'll be out of the apartment and hopefully the lease but you never know.
i've been trying to hang out with old friends like cat and kristy and andy and my sister and all of her roomates but something just isn't right with me. there is some kind of void.
im sure life goes on.
i can't wait for sasquatch.
not sure if i should have talked to him afterwards.
but i felt disgusted/embarassed/angry/etc.
needed a little time to shake it off not to mention have it cool
off with josh.
i'm still not drinking by the way.
maybe its a good thing we aren't friends anymore.
im assuming we aren't friends anymore.
when you are good friends with someone and they delete you from their myspace and don't say anything to you i think it means something.. i know its just myspace but people treat it like a burn factor, know what i mean?
well whatever the case may be, my feelings aren't hurt but im a little suprised.
other than that.
i wouldnt say my life is going well but its moving along.
not progressing just.. you know.. going day by day.
getting by, whatever.
i'm trying to be more independent but when you become independent on
someone you are with and you live with its hard. its like i almost have to take a step backward. i actually feel like i have to distance myself from him and maybe harden my feelings a little bit to become more independent. it doesnt really makes sense but im confused. how can you be in a year or more relationship with someone.. live with them.. and hear them say they want a more relxed and independent relationship. this does NOT mean an open relationship. i dont know how to deal with that. since it all happened so fast and yeah. it would definitely be a step backward for me. hopefully soon i'll be out of the apartment and hopefully the lease but you never know.
i've been trying to hang out with old friends like cat and kristy and andy and my sister and all of her roomates but something just isn't right with me. there is some kind of void.
im sure life goes on.
i can't wait for sasquatch.