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life has been throwing me curve balls and im trying to deal with it as best as a can but its hard. i decided i would write it in my lj and get it out since i feel like it would be hard to talk to.. anyone really about it.
when i first got aol when i was younger i was about 12. i went into chatrooms all the time and i made a couple lifers. kryssee and misty were like my best online friends.. we started our own lj group and our own chatrooms and this and that and we would all talk on the phone and we had this big plan to meet in the middle of the states because i am from washington, kryssee is from georgia, and misty was from virginia. and we've planned it ever since. we've kept in contact this whole time.. i'm 21 now.. well i just found out that kryssee died in a car accident. how am i suppose to feel? i feel like i want to cry and be really upset about it and other people are saying "well jenn, you shouldn't be too upset, you never met her".. and its confusing and wierd and frustrating.. the only person i felt who could really understand was misty but i couldnt get a hold of her until today and she is taking it really hard too. kryssee was 19. thats too young. it feels like its a bad joke.. but its not.
i've known her longer than like most of my friends so how am i suppose to feel?
just because i never met her in person does that mean im not suppose to care as much?
i've been dealing with relationship problems, worked them out for now i really hope it can stay better.. im not getting too much help from my family. money is so stressful. i hate money. my sister is back and she has been getting stuff for me to get traveling with her. we'll probably go on a short trip in the spring.. and i start my new job in march. i'll move back to seattle.. i dont know. life is a trip.
when i first got aol when i was younger i was about 12. i went into chatrooms all the time and i made a couple lifers. kryssee and misty were like my best online friends.. we started our own lj group and our own chatrooms and this and that and we would all talk on the phone and we had this big plan to meet in the middle of the states because i am from washington, kryssee is from georgia, and misty was from virginia. and we've planned it ever since. we've kept in contact this whole time.. i'm 21 now.. well i just found out that kryssee died in a car accident. how am i suppose to feel? i feel like i want to cry and be really upset about it and other people are saying "well jenn, you shouldn't be too upset, you never met her".. and its confusing and wierd and frustrating.. the only person i felt who could really understand was misty but i couldnt get a hold of her until today and she is taking it really hard too. kryssee was 19. thats too young. it feels like its a bad joke.. but its not.
i've known her longer than like most of my friends so how am i suppose to feel?
just because i never met her in person does that mean im not suppose to care as much?
i've been dealing with relationship problems, worked them out for now i really hope it can stay better.. im not getting too much help from my family. money is so stressful. i hate money. my sister is back and she has been getting stuff for me to get traveling with her. we'll probably go on a short trip in the spring.. and i start my new job in march. i'll move back to seattle.. i dont know. life is a trip.