Lolipops and candycanes... I can seeee the city LIGHTS!
I'm trying to be productive today. Its already 12:32 and i've just had breakfast and woken up about an hour ago. Score!
I'm going to write down some ideas for my new layout.
I'm going to actually FINISH writing something today-IF IT KILLS ME.
I'm also going to be finishing up some parcels and stuff for Christmas or at least get them prepared. Becky- I have the final parcel to send out to you. Laura yours will be going shortly. Dea- your double package should be arriving soon. We had a slow day in sending it due to some postal strikes - so its... uh- on its way- and my father sent it- so which means .... he did it when he remembered coz I was too lazy to send it myself (lol)
I'm talking with my parents about New York today. Wish me luck bbs. Coz my mother- she doesn't want me to go- and yes. I am scared. I'm terrified. Not about living on my own- just being away from EVERYONE I know. I dont KNOW anyone in NY, so I will have to entertain myself- which I think I can do- and I can talk to ANYONE and socialise. My fear is in failing in my goal. In becoming nothing out of something I want to be so badly. Money too is a major worry. I'm going to have to rely on my parents- which sucks, at being 24 I should be able to do this by myself. I've saved up nearly 10 grand of EVERYTHING I have. That's EVERYTHING. I need another 10 grand by next July.
I dont talk about this a lot, especially on here- but I do feel very unsupportive in this. Not by you people because I dont talk about it and certainly not with Laura who is my biggest support in well everything .
I need to get my finger out of my arse and fucking do some work and get where I want to get by DOING something.
I'm going to write down some ideas for my new layout.
I'm going to actually FINISH writing something today-IF IT KILLS ME.
I'm also going to be finishing up some parcels and stuff for Christmas or at least get them prepared. Becky- I have the final parcel to send out to you. Laura yours will be going shortly. Dea- your double package should be arriving soon. We had a slow day in sending it due to some postal strikes - so its... uh- on its way- and my father sent it- so which means .... he did it when he remembered coz I was too lazy to send it myself (lol)
I'm talking with my parents about New York today. Wish me luck bbs. Coz my mother- she doesn't want me to go- and yes. I am scared. I'm terrified. Not about living on my own- just being away from EVERYONE I know. I dont KNOW anyone in NY, so I will have to entertain myself- which I think I can do- and I can talk to ANYONE and socialise. My fear is in failing in my goal. In becoming nothing out of something I want to be so badly. Money too is a major worry. I'm going to have to rely on my parents- which sucks, at being 24 I should be able to do this by myself. I've saved up nearly 10 grand of EVERYTHING I have. That's EVERYTHING. I need another 10 grand by next July.
I dont talk about this a lot, especially on here- but I do feel very unsupportive in this. Not by you people because I dont talk about it and certainly not with Laura who is my biggest support in well everything .
I need to get my finger out of my arse and fucking do some work and get where I want to get by DOING something.