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so tonight i was talking to this person and i opened up for the first time in as far as i can remember. i dropped some walls i had said i was going to keep up. now i dont know if it was good or bad, these things i said but i'm pretty sure it was the right thing. now i just hope i'll never have to regret it. it took alot of fmy chest to just say what i wanted to say. some of the things i said arent in my character to have been said but oh well they needed to be said. there is also someone i want to be apart of my life and they asked me why and i really couldnt give them the answer they were looking for but the only answer i can give is just that I DO. there are experiences i will be having and challenges i will be facing pretty soon in life and i want them there with me whatever the case may be.my life is really starting to take me in a different direction and im glad. i need to get out of this fucking just cycle im in. a big thing lately im finding out is i guess i just need to stop trying so hard to be cool with everyone. i've built this reputation on being the kid that knows everyone and is cool with everyone. so in return when someone i know that i was always cool with, i find out is just constantly talking all this shit about me and literaly making fun of me as if we were in like 9th grade. i take offense to it and get pissed off. and thats how a bully works if they get a reaction out of what they do then they win. and well i thought that shit ended 5 years ago but apparently we still have people like this at the age of 19/20 which is pathetic none the less but oh well. reality check i guess. so fuck you your worthless. im sorry your so negative about everyone around you and the friends that follow along, also the fact you get mad at the friends who dont follow along.
i guess theres more to tell later.
i guess theres more to tell later.