UGH
i HAVE to :
-find a new job immediately
-save money from that job to go go dance to make MORE MONEYS
-move the FUCK out. i dont even have to like the people or have a big place. i just need to GET THE FUCK OUT.
hopefully i can make this all happen BEFORE summer. cause if not it will be a VERY LONG spring. and i won't be too happy about that. i am absolutely going crazy h ere. it's not even funny. im sure if i wasn't calm enough i would have done something ridiculously stupid by now.
i would also prefer to move during the day so when he comes home its just an empty bedroom. if not, i will move on the weekend and "promise to call once im settled". and just not call. at all. and im not going to feel bad. fuck this shit. i'll probably talk to my brother about this afterward.
tonight im going to see chin chin though<3 and not worry about this. timmy and i talked about room for rents and things of that nature. and to save all my money from dancing to so i can move into my apt and get my car. whoo<3 i'll just get a beater car or whatever. or put a down payment. cause i need a car. i also need to see about getting my license baaaack. i hate when dmv fucks up paper work. gah. should have gotten that fixed except my id doesn't match where i currently live. FAIL.
-find a new job immediately
-save money from that job to go go dance to make MORE MONEYS
-move the FUCK out. i dont even have to like the people or have a big place. i just need to GET THE FUCK OUT.
hopefully i can make this all happen BEFORE summer. cause if not it will be a VERY LONG spring. and i won't be too happy about that. i am absolutely going crazy h ere. it's not even funny. im sure if i wasn't calm enough i would have done something ridiculously stupid by now.
i would also prefer to move during the day so when he comes home its just an empty bedroom. if not, i will move on the weekend and "promise to call once im settled". and just not call. at all. and im not going to feel bad. fuck this shit. i'll probably talk to my brother about this afterward.
tonight im going to see chin chin though<3 and not worry about this. timmy and i talked about room for rents and things of that nature. and to save all my money from dancing to so i can move into my apt and get my car. whoo<3 i'll just get a beater car or whatever. or put a down payment. cause i need a car. i also need to see about getting my license baaaack. i hate when dmv fucks up paper work. gah. should have gotten that fixed except my id doesn't match where i currently live. FAIL.