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i have this empty feeling inside of me, like somthing is wrong.
i know what i have to do to get rid of this feeling. but i can't do it. i would feel awful. but things just arent going how i wanted them to. but i know this isnt anyones fault but my own. but i feel like i have changed and my needs and wants are different. i miss how things used to me. how i used to be. i thought i liked how i have been latley, but seeing all my friends together made me relize how much i missed them. i have been so distant with them. and im really sorry you guys..last night when i got home from the mall i tried so hard not to cry. it seemed like just for a night i was the person i used to be, and i liked it. i liked it alot. and then when i got back home, i was the person i am now. and it didnt feel right like i thought it did.
i just need more time to think.
ha but i know that the thinking will just turn to worrying.
i guess this is what i get for planning my future before it even gets here.
i know what i have to do to get rid of this feeling. but i can't do it. i would feel awful. but things just arent going how i wanted them to. but i know this isnt anyones fault but my own. but i feel like i have changed and my needs and wants are different. i miss how things used to me. how i used to be. i thought i liked how i have been latley, but seeing all my friends together made me relize how much i missed them. i have been so distant with them. and im really sorry you guys..last night when i got home from the mall i tried so hard not to cry. it seemed like just for a night i was the person i used to be, and i liked it. i liked it alot. and then when i got back home, i was the person i am now. and it didnt feel right like i thought it did.
i just need more time to think.
ha but i know that the thinking will just turn to worrying.
i guess this is what i get for planning my future before it even gets here.