Fuckin' Shit!
I thought high school drama was long gone...shit was I wrong. I finally understand what it feels like to be ditched by a friend, and for all of my friends that I have ditched I'm am totally sorry and next time I do it promise to just slap me! I'm super happy that megan found a guy that'll treat her nice...honestly I couldn't be happier...I'm so proud that she actually found someone like she did...but for some reason I feel like shit. I know that when you find someone really special you tend to spend a lot of time with them...but I guess no one ever really thinks about how you might neglect the others around you that love you...I feel like I'm actually understanding this friendship thing more and I hope that this will come out fine and I'll come out to be a better person..in fact I know it'll be fine...just one of those friggin "ups and downs" in life I guess...I feel like no one understands me anymore, although I'm sure you all do..I've been keeping everything inside lately and I know that I shouldn't do that, usually I'm a really straight forward person but I'm so scared that I'm going to lose someone that I care for so much...you couldn't even imagine...I know it'll never be like it use to..and I will just have to learn how to deal..thats fine with me...but...gosh...I don't even know how to put my feelings into words...oh well I'm sure ya'll get it...I better get going...I have a feeling that tomorrow is going to be one tough day..love ya!! *muah*