Haven't read lj in ages...
1. I'm sorry for all of the ways I fucked up and did things without thinking. The other day, before all of this, you said to me "you're my hero." It made me feel so good, even if you just meant it in passing. I wish I could be your hero again, and I'd give anything, because really, YOU'RE my hero, and you always have been. I worry that you don't think highly of me any more, even though I shouldn't worry so much; I do, though, because you're really important to me. Yeah, you've messed up before too, and you've hurt me before too- but you should never doubt how much of a hero you are to me, and to other people.
Because you are.
2. Sometimes I don't understand you, and we often have very different interests. And sometimes you understand me better than anybody I know, and instead of judging me (or others), you help. I love you, my man.
It's simple- because that's how we are together.
And it's good.
3. I don't know you at all any more, even though we've spent so much time around each other since freshman year. It's definitely not simple; that can also be put up to debate, I guess. Oh yes, I've been angry with you, probably more so than I've been with most schoolmates, and sometimes it was definitely for good reason. Sometimes, you were angry, and it was definitely for good reason.
Now, whenever I'm with you, I'm blank, because I don't know what to do. It's awful. I don't think I've ever had so many conflicts with a person. EVER. Why? I have no idea; it's how the dice rolled. It's sad though, and I wish it wouldn't happen any more. Somebody break the ice! It's cold.
4. AH. Our thoughts and emotions can conflict so much, and whenever I follow your advice, it SERIOUSLY messes me up and gets me into trouble. Lol. I guess it works for you, though. Sometimes, it's very relaxing, almost devil-may-care to be with you, and whatnot. I can be loose around you, and it rocks. We like good music, and you appreciate break dancers. It's so cool that you like history. You're a pretty rockin' beezy. Sometimes I envy you. heh. Sometimes, though, our thoughts are so different, and I think "thank God I'm not him". heh. That sounds bad.
ROCK IT.
5. WHOAH. You're so amazing. Around you, there is no loneliness. We're not in super-cahoots, probably even less now, but we've talked, and I love it. Pang is so much less boring with you. Thank you for listening to me, and talking, and passing notes, through all the weird jokes and emo anthems and crazy schemes.
6. You're not on lj! So dag. You are wonderful, and you are a great friend. You are probably the only person who has said "I want to go to prom with you!" so enthusiastically. Lol. Go with Taylor, though, or he'll die.
He'll asphyxiate himself with those purple track pants.
You two are wonderful together, by the way. I remember watching you on the bus together. I'm so glad that you two finally got together.
Mm. I feel genuinely appreciated with you. You make me feel good about myself. The other day, you said to me "Why would anybody hate Adrian?"
7. Why do you rock? Because when we talk in class, we rofl so hard. This is me, rofling, like a helicopter. Yes. And, you are a great musician. Also, you're a decent, good person.
Why haven't we talked or hung out more?
8. I tried on your cowgirl boots. I looked ridiculous. You're tall. And skinny. And you have browned skin. And your laugh is so open. When you drive by in your stunner shades and red car, you look just too cool. I'm glad that I've hung out with you guys more. I hope to get to know you better.
9. You there. Ambitious and kind and dresses like a whirlwind. Yes you. You like the same music that I do, and you're envious that I went to a Decemberists concert. I hope I can get to know you more. Play your viola.
10. I never got to know you very well. Why? I have no idea what you think of me. It would probably be awkward to spend time alone together, though. PE rocked.
Ack. I'm tired.
This week was crazy. I did some really cool things, and then I also really fucked up in some ways.
I did some things I regret, but I also did some things that I'm really very glad for.
I've been hanging out with other people in front of the library lately (Roxanne Calimeris, Patrick Walsh, Brandon Gaoiran, Nicole Ried, Taylor Garvin, Dawn, Jenna, etc...)
It's been nice. The change of scenery and people, that is.
Actually, I think I've grown substantially this week. I can definitely feel the "teenage emotional growth" goin' on. I know what I need to do, and what I am. It's nice to be level.
Heh. Welcome back, nerd.
I was talking to Mikey, and we both agreed that the good thing about hitting bottom is that, afterwards, there's nowhere to go but up.
That nosy kid. Heh. Not really.
I never really talk to him.
Because you are.
2. Sometimes I don't understand you, and we often have very different interests. And sometimes you understand me better than anybody I know, and instead of judging me (or others), you help. I love you, my man.
It's simple- because that's how we are together.
And it's good.
3. I don't know you at all any more, even though we've spent so much time around each other since freshman year. It's definitely not simple; that can also be put up to debate, I guess. Oh yes, I've been angry with you, probably more so than I've been with most schoolmates, and sometimes it was definitely for good reason. Sometimes, you were angry, and it was definitely for good reason.
Now, whenever I'm with you, I'm blank, because I don't know what to do. It's awful. I don't think I've ever had so many conflicts with a person. EVER. Why? I have no idea; it's how the dice rolled. It's sad though, and I wish it wouldn't happen any more. Somebody break the ice! It's cold.
4. AH. Our thoughts and emotions can conflict so much, and whenever I follow your advice, it SERIOUSLY messes me up and gets me into trouble. Lol. I guess it works for you, though. Sometimes, it's very relaxing, almost devil-may-care to be with you, and whatnot. I can be loose around you, and it rocks. We like good music, and you appreciate break dancers. It's so cool that you like history. You're a pretty rockin' beezy. Sometimes I envy you. heh. Sometimes, though, our thoughts are so different, and I think "thank God I'm not him". heh. That sounds bad.
ROCK IT.
5. WHOAH. You're so amazing. Around you, there is no loneliness. We're not in super-cahoots, probably even less now, but we've talked, and I love it. Pang is so much less boring with you. Thank you for listening to me, and talking, and passing notes, through all the weird jokes and emo anthems and crazy schemes.
6. You're not on lj! So dag. You are wonderful, and you are a great friend. You are probably the only person who has said "I want to go to prom with you!" so enthusiastically. Lol. Go with Taylor, though, or he'll die.
He'll asphyxiate himself with those purple track pants.
You two are wonderful together, by the way. I remember watching you on the bus together. I'm so glad that you two finally got together.
Mm. I feel genuinely appreciated with you. You make me feel good about myself. The other day, you said to me "Why would anybody hate Adrian?"
7. Why do you rock? Because when we talk in class, we rofl so hard. This is me, rofling, like a helicopter. Yes. And, you are a great musician. Also, you're a decent, good person.
Why haven't we talked or hung out more?
8. I tried on your cowgirl boots. I looked ridiculous. You're tall. And skinny. And you have browned skin. And your laugh is so open. When you drive by in your stunner shades and red car, you look just too cool. I'm glad that I've hung out with you guys more. I hope to get to know you better.
9. You there. Ambitious and kind and dresses like a whirlwind. Yes you. You like the same music that I do, and you're envious that I went to a Decemberists concert. I hope I can get to know you more. Play your viola.
10. I never got to know you very well. Why? I have no idea what you think of me. It would probably be awkward to spend time alone together, though. PE rocked.
Ack. I'm tired.
This week was crazy. I did some really cool things, and then I also really fucked up in some ways.
I did some things I regret, but I also did some things that I'm really very glad for.
I've been hanging out with other people in front of the library lately (Roxanne Calimeris, Patrick Walsh, Brandon Gaoiran, Nicole Ried, Taylor Garvin, Dawn, Jenna, etc...)
It's been nice. The change of scenery and people, that is.
Actually, I think I've grown substantially this week. I can definitely feel the "teenage emotional growth" goin' on. I know what I need to do, and what I am. It's nice to be level.
Heh. Welcome back, nerd.
I was talking to Mikey, and we both agreed that the good thing about hitting bottom is that, afterwards, there's nowhere to go but up.
That nosy kid. Heh. Not really.
I never really talk to him.