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[nerdishh]

life's been bad.
horrible.
i started cutting again.
i'm overdosing everyday.
the average number of pills i'm taking is about 28-30ish.'
i'm back to smoking.
& drinking.

i want to die.
i'm having guy problems.
4-5 guys want to be with me.
but it's not going to happen;
because i'm moving this year.
ugh, fuck.
actually i don't know if we're moving.
but i want to.
start over.
have a better life.
whatever.
i'm lost
&
lonely.
fuck man.
bangbang, she's dead.