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I feel deceived.
And soo utterly pathetic it hurts.
But most of all, I just need someone to hug.
I feel absolutely horrible right now.
The feeling of being told not to cry by your parents because I'm going to get in fucking SHIT and getting a fucking finger pointed at me, and a fucking DEATH STARE because I can't stop letting it out ... is horrible. Living in a household where you get condemned for feeling sad is the norm here BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO STOP ME FROM FEELING HOW I FEEL. YOU FUCKEN PIECES OF SHIT. I NEVER TELL YOU ANYTHING BECAUSE IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME STORY. YOU FUCKEN JUDGE ME BEFORE EVEN UNDERSTANDING. I'm glad I never tell you anything because you don't fucking deserve it.
As for your sorry ass be a fucking man you goddamn pussy. Don't EVER tell me shit like "I need time to think" and then go off skating with your loser friends two minutes later. Don't EVER tell me everything's okay when OOPS it's not. If you ever fucking lead me on I'll fucking cut your neck. I WENT ON FUCKING TRULY BELIEVING THAT EVERYTHING WAS GOOD. THAT EVERYTHING WAS RENEWED. I TRULY FELT LIKE WE WERE STARTING OVER. I TOLD MY FUCKING FRIENDS HOW BLOODY HAPPY I WAS THAT WE WORKED THINGS OUT. I EVEN WROTE YOU A FUCKING LETTER EXPRESSING HOW FUCKING RELIEVED AND HAPPY I WAS TO KNOW FROM YOU, YOU FUCKING JERK, THAT WE WERE FINE. THAT THAT "CONNECTION" WAS STILL THERE. LEARN HOW TO SAY THINGS WITH VALIDITY YOU INCONSIDERATE PIECE OF SHIT.
And soo utterly pathetic it hurts.
But most of all, I just need someone to hug.
I feel absolutely horrible right now.
The feeling of being told not to cry by your parents because I'm going to get in fucking SHIT and getting a fucking finger pointed at me, and a fucking DEATH STARE because I can't stop letting it out ... is horrible. Living in a household where you get condemned for feeling sad is the norm here BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO STOP ME FROM FEELING HOW I FEEL. YOU FUCKEN PIECES OF SHIT. I NEVER TELL YOU ANYTHING BECAUSE IT'S ALWAYS THE SAME STORY. YOU FUCKEN JUDGE ME BEFORE EVEN UNDERSTANDING. I'm glad I never tell you anything because you don't fucking deserve it.
As for your sorry ass be a fucking man you goddamn pussy. Don't EVER tell me shit like "I need time to think" and then go off skating with your loser friends two minutes later. Don't EVER tell me everything's okay when OOPS it's not. If you ever fucking lead me on I'll fucking cut your neck. I WENT ON FUCKING TRULY BELIEVING THAT EVERYTHING WAS GOOD. THAT EVERYTHING WAS RENEWED. I TRULY FELT LIKE WE WERE STARTING OVER. I TOLD MY FUCKING FRIENDS HOW BLOODY HAPPY I WAS THAT WE WORKED THINGS OUT. I EVEN WROTE YOU A FUCKING LETTER EXPRESSING HOW FUCKING RELIEVED AND HAPPY I WAS TO KNOW FROM YOU, YOU FUCKING JERK, THAT WE WERE FINE. THAT THAT "CONNECTION" WAS STILL THERE. LEARN HOW TO SAY THINGS WITH VALIDITY YOU INCONSIDERATE PIECE OF SHIT.