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i want to make a device that records all the deep, peaceful thoughts that come when you're lying in bed trying to fall into slumber. my brain seems so productive at that time. its produces the beautiful words that i want to say to eliena, but dont come to my mind when im with her. i dunno. i love my thoughts at night. they're so positive and just, ugh. but of course, im too lazy to grab a pen and turn on the light and write out what would seem at the time... a book. i guess i should have a journal that i actually write in BEFORE i climb into bed, huh? but i tried that. the words dont come when you want them too, for me at least. hmph.
also, i want my life to be recorded so i can look back on it at a later time (like right now...), not the boring crap, just those moments when everything is perfect, you know? i wish i could spend every waking moment with her ... i never do seem to get tired of having her around. shes just..a ray of sunshine. but yeah, what can you do? i guess i'll settle for memories, but they eventually fade.
also, i want my life to be recorded so i can look back on it at a later time (like right now...), not the boring crap, just those moments when everything is perfect, you know? i wish i could spend every waking moment with her ... i never do seem to get tired of having her around. shes just..a ray of sunshine. but yeah, what can you do? i guess i'll settle for memories, but they eventually fade.