Family Ties
I miss my family, I miss my mom, I miss smelling just cooked food when I come home, I miss having someone to talk to at all hours of the day when I'm home, I miss having someone give me really good advice, I miss. . . .a lot of things I guess I should say. It's not enough to just say family, because there is so much else that they embody than just people in a house together. There's a place that I hold inside of me that feels empty whenever they're not around, even if we fight or get on each other's nerves.
Siri's moving out at the end of this month since rent was getting to be too much for her, especially with her not tattooing at the house anymore. I think because of all the outside stress we were dealing with our friendship got a little fuzzy on the way, but nearing the end it seems to have actually strengthened. And I realize how much I'm really going to miss her and how much she's going to miss me. It's different when you go from living with someone to not having them around all the time. Sure we had a lot of disagreements and hard times, but we also hung out a lot and just spent time together- like a family.
Don't get me wrong, my other roommate is great, but she's definitely a lot more quiet than Siri and keeps to herself a lot more. It's the right decision for her to move out and I'm relieved in a sense, but I know not having her around is going to sink in soon. But we've promised to hang out still. We'll probably even hang out more now that I won't be seeing her in small intervals constantly.
On another note- I hate how small things from your past can be brought back into your mind for no reason and just burrow it's way under your skin, becoming an unscratchable itch that just tickles away at you.
Meh. I feel all over the place right now. It's probably just because I'm trying to keep myself awake while waiting for the mr. to get here.
He, unfortunately, is going through a rather rough time. It's actually kind of a long story but I really need to vent, so here goes!
Siri's moving out at the end of this month since rent was getting to be too much for her, especially with her not tattooing at the house anymore. I think because of all the outside stress we were dealing with our friendship got a little fuzzy on the way, but nearing the end it seems to have actually strengthened. And I realize how much I'm really going to miss her and how much she's going to miss me. It's different when you go from living with someone to not having them around all the time. Sure we had a lot of disagreements and hard times, but we also hung out a lot and just spent time together- like a family.
Don't get me wrong, my other roommate is great, but she's definitely a lot more quiet than Siri and keeps to herself a lot more. It's the right decision for her to move out and I'm relieved in a sense, but I know not having her around is going to sink in soon. But we've promised to hang out still. We'll probably even hang out more now that I won't be seeing her in small intervals constantly.
On another note- I hate how small things from your past can be brought back into your mind for no reason and just burrow it's way under your skin, becoming an unscratchable itch that just tickles away at you.
Meh. I feel all over the place right now. It's probably just because I'm trying to keep myself awake while waiting for the mr. to get here.
He, unfortunately, is going through a rather rough time. It's actually kind of a long story but I really need to vent, so here goes!