Transition
6 months, 15 days, 4 hours. Approximately.
That's how long ago I graduated from college. And I still don't have a job! I still haven't finished my resume, and I honestly haven't been job hunting. You know what I think the problem is? Or at least PART of it...? It's the fact that all my life I have found my purpose in life as being a good student doing all I needed to do to earn good grades. That was my life for the past 16 years. My academic career gave me purpose. And now that it's over for an unspecified amount of time, I just don't know what to do with myself, nor do I know how to begin the next stage of life. I know that EVERYONE goes through this transition. I just find it difficult because school has seriously been a HUGE part of my life. Every other aspect of my life (except of course for God) kinda got pushed aside. But now... with school finished... I have more time and energy to use in those areas. And it seems like everything in my life is finally beginning to balance out or at least catch up with me.
Since May 5th, I've lost my grandfather, attended 3 viewings (including his), participated in a fashion show for the first (and last) time, watched a stage play for the first time, got drunk for the first time, rode on a train for the first time, went wine tasting for the first time, became somewhat involved with someone for the first time, talked on the phone for over 3 hours straight for the first time, became reacquainted with old friends I had lost touch with but sadly grew apart from others, became closer to my cousins, traveled to the Philippines, rediscovered what is was like to feel (to be angry, to be sad, to cry, to have a heart) after 2 years of relying solely on my mind and logic, got a new phone and number, and soon I'll be moving to a new house in Rancho "Coco-Mango" with the family after living in Azusa all my life.
With all these things that have been going on since May 5th, I have changed as a person. In addition, my perspectives on people, on life, and on the world as a whole have changed. Areas of my life that I had neglected or pushed aside are suddenly catching up with me, and I've welcomed these changes with open arms. I've just been going with the flow with my arms wide open, embracing everything that God is putting before me, and so far, everything has been going pretty good. This is probably another reason for my lack of job hunting motivation. I've been too passive. I've been waiting for all the exciting new experiences God had in store for me. And even if it meant my initiative for finding a job is ridiculously low for a while... even if it made me look like a lazy bum... that's okay. I needed this break. I'm glad I've had the chance to work on my relationship with my family, both immediate and extended. I'm glad I've been able to experience slow but progressive developments in my love life. I'm glad I've been able to sift through my friends and figure out who I want in my life until we grow old and who (I'm reluctant to say) I wouldn't mind growing apart from. I'm glad for all the lessons I've learned about EVERYTHING.
Although I haven't been gaining work experience like I promised my mom I would, I've been gaining experience in OTHER equally important areas. So when people ask me "what do you do all day?" or "have you found a job yet?" or "when are you going to start being an adult?" I, of course, will answer honestly with no explanation and make myself look like a lazy bum. But only God and I know of the life experiences I've gained since May 5th. And no amount of condescending words, discouragement, or guilt trips can take away the impact that these experiences have made on me as an individual.
Bottom line is... F*CK YOU!!!
HAHAHA I'm jk :) Bye!!
That's how long ago I graduated from college. And I still don't have a job! I still haven't finished my resume, and I honestly haven't been job hunting. You know what I think the problem is? Or at least PART of it...? It's the fact that all my life I have found my purpose in life as being a good student doing all I needed to do to earn good grades. That was my life for the past 16 years. My academic career gave me purpose. And now that it's over for an unspecified amount of time, I just don't know what to do with myself, nor do I know how to begin the next stage of life. I know that EVERYONE goes through this transition. I just find it difficult because school has seriously been a HUGE part of my life. Every other aspect of my life (except of course for God) kinda got pushed aside. But now... with school finished... I have more time and energy to use in those areas. And it seems like everything in my life is finally beginning to balance out or at least catch up with me.
Since May 5th, I've lost my grandfather, attended 3 viewings (including his), participated in a fashion show for the first (and last) time, watched a stage play for the first time, got drunk for the first time, rode on a train for the first time, went wine tasting for the first time, became somewhat involved with someone for the first time, talked on the phone for over 3 hours straight for the first time, became reacquainted with old friends I had lost touch with but sadly grew apart from others, became closer to my cousins, traveled to the Philippines, rediscovered what is was like to feel (to be angry, to be sad, to cry, to have a heart) after 2 years of relying solely on my mind and logic, got a new phone and number, and soon I'll be moving to a new house in Rancho "Coco-Mango" with the family after living in Azusa all my life.
With all these things that have been going on since May 5th, I have changed as a person. In addition, my perspectives on people, on life, and on the world as a whole have changed. Areas of my life that I had neglected or pushed aside are suddenly catching up with me, and I've welcomed these changes with open arms. I've just been going with the flow with my arms wide open, embracing everything that God is putting before me, and so far, everything has been going pretty good. This is probably another reason for my lack of job hunting motivation. I've been too passive. I've been waiting for all the exciting new experiences God had in store for me. And even if it meant my initiative for finding a job is ridiculously low for a while... even if it made me look like a lazy bum... that's okay. I needed this break. I'm glad I've had the chance to work on my relationship with my family, both immediate and extended. I'm glad I've been able to experience slow but progressive developments in my love life. I'm glad I've been able to sift through my friends and figure out who I want in my life until we grow old and who (I'm reluctant to say) I wouldn't mind growing apart from. I'm glad for all the lessons I've learned about EVERYTHING.
Although I haven't been gaining work experience like I promised my mom I would, I've been gaining experience in OTHER equally important areas. So when people ask me "what do you do all day?" or "have you found a job yet?" or "when are you going to start being an adult?" I, of course, will answer honestly with no explanation and make myself look like a lazy bum. But only God and I know of the life experiences I've gained since May 5th. And no amount of condescending words, discouragement, or guilt trips can take away the impact that these experiences have made on me as an individual.
Bottom line is... F*CK YOU!!!
HAHAHA I'm jk :) Bye!!