New Life
A few things have set me on this path with the goals in mind (which I will list later).
One of them was that I was talking to Derek and he was inquiring as to whether we might have sex that night or not (asking how I was feeling, etc). I replied I wasn't feeling well and he said "Of course" as a response. I felt very saddened by this remark and stated, "I'm sorry I don't make you happy." He simply said, "It's okay." That hurt more than I can describe.
Another thing was that I feel very unhappy in my body. I feel unhappy because I don't exercise enough. I feel like I am wasting time, money, energy, and possibly my future, by not doing something about it. I just feel miserable. I want to feel more confident. I want to be able to go out and make friends and not feel like they will judge me based solely on my (terrible) looks.
So here comes the changes I am hoping for..........
I've seen things where people have changed their lives with small steps.
I want to change my life with some small steps. I have a few goals in mind, and they are the following;
1. Be more energetic in everything I do.
2. Be more healthy in both my body and in my food eating choices.
3. Feel happier, less depressed.
4. Enjoy a more active sex life.
5. Do my best to make Derek happy as often as I can (in doing this, I will be happy as well).
These are just a few things that go hand-in-hand that I would like to accomplish. I am thinking of starting a YouTube account solely for following myself on this journey. This way I can document everything, including how I look/feel/etc. I hope this will work out.
One of them was that I was talking to Derek and he was inquiring as to whether we might have sex that night or not (asking how I was feeling, etc). I replied I wasn't feeling well and he said "Of course" as a response. I felt very saddened by this remark and stated, "I'm sorry I don't make you happy." He simply said, "It's okay." That hurt more than I can describe.
Another thing was that I feel very unhappy in my body. I feel unhappy because I don't exercise enough. I feel like I am wasting time, money, energy, and possibly my future, by not doing something about it. I just feel miserable. I want to feel more confident. I want to be able to go out and make friends and not feel like they will judge me based solely on my (terrible) looks.
So here comes the changes I am hoping for..........
I've seen things where people have changed their lives with small steps.
I want to change my life with some small steps. I have a few goals in mind, and they are the following;
1. Be more energetic in everything I do.
2. Be more healthy in both my body and in my food eating choices.
3. Feel happier, less depressed.
4. Enjoy a more active sex life.
5. Do my best to make Derek happy as often as I can (in doing this, I will be happy as well).
These are just a few things that go hand-in-hand that I would like to accomplish. I am thinking of starting a YouTube account solely for following myself on this journey. This way I can document everything, including how I look/feel/etc. I hope this will work out.