The Masquerader And Phoenix
I've spent the past few months as if in some nostalgic frenzy. I've spent a great deal of time with Neko, I spoke with V and began talking to Andi again. All good things I must assure you, but it's just....irksome how things have changed. V is some childish party goer, Andi is as indecisive as ever (if not more so) and Neko...well I don't know what to think there. I still cannot read him.
It's just TIna Bryan and me now. I have to say I do like it that way. I did meet a boy (yes I gave the dating thing another chance!). 6 years older and all was well at first. Nothing but good traits, as most new beginnings go, but then something changed. I cannot say what, I promise I'm not as oblivious to my life as this makes me sound. What more can I say? Drifted, quickly really. It's odd how these things happen. I can't say I'm very torn about it, more angry than anything...that one is easier to deal with than sorrow. What irritates me most about this entire situation is the fact that I don't know WHY. I live and breathe details, I must know the methodical processes etc etc. I have no reasoning for it.
This weekend is the last of my free time for a while. Next week is going to be hell at work, and I fly out of state next weekend. I'll be gone for far too long and come back to an ever growing mountain of work to catch up on because I could not do it while I was on assignment for work. Perhaps that is what is bothering me, I know that I will not have time to myself for nearly a month.
It's all out of my control at this moment. I think I will just ride this through and see where it takes me. I've always been able to fight my way back into something comfortable for me....
I'll have nothing to do while I'm away....most likely I'll be updating this nearly religiously.
It's just TIna Bryan and me now. I have to say I do like it that way. I did meet a boy (yes I gave the dating thing another chance!). 6 years older and all was well at first. Nothing but good traits, as most new beginnings go, but then something changed. I cannot say what, I promise I'm not as oblivious to my life as this makes me sound. What more can I say? Drifted, quickly really. It's odd how these things happen. I can't say I'm very torn about it, more angry than anything...that one is easier to deal with than sorrow. What irritates me most about this entire situation is the fact that I don't know WHY. I live and breathe details, I must know the methodical processes etc etc. I have no reasoning for it.
This weekend is the last of my free time for a while. Next week is going to be hell at work, and I fly out of state next weekend. I'll be gone for far too long and come back to an ever growing mountain of work to catch up on because I could not do it while I was on assignment for work. Perhaps that is what is bothering me, I know that I will not have time to myself for nearly a month.
It's all out of my control at this moment. I think I will just ride this through and see where it takes me. I've always been able to fight my way back into something comfortable for me....
I'll have nothing to do while I'm away....most likely I'll be updating this nearly religiously.