Good Tidings
"I'm not particularly fond of heat. I like the cold, the sensation of rain on my head and watching my breath turn into smoke."
We are leaves from the same tree but like those in Autumn, our colors are different and varied. Phae prefers the Winter to my Summer; enjoys the brisk bite of wind when I bask in the warmth of sunshine. I would much rather sweat then shiver and I hate my coat(s). I like the freedom of shorts and simple shirts or tanks, I get thrilled at the thought of jumping into clear blue, blue water for a perfect swim on a perfect Summers day.
For me Summer is a time to truly enjoy the night, when you can sneak off to a park, spread out a blanket and get a chance to lay out and count the stars. Long steamy walks that sometimes lead into steamy encounters. Ah, I long for Summer with a pining almost equal to that of my James.
But enough of all that! I just got to thinking all because of a journal entry I read.
My Holidays have been lovely! Almost perfect in fact, albeit busy, but then who isn't busy at this time of the year? Jaysus. I worked for most of it though I did get Christmas off, which I spent Christmas Day at home relaxing and sharing it with my Mom. I had thought about volunteering to work it since it would have brought me some big money home but I never got the chance. All well on that!
I did go over to my Aunt Kelly's after work on Saturday and while I missed most of everyone I did get to see; Michelle, Steve, Kelly, Tim, Farra, Sidney, Madison, Sofia, Summer, and Steve's lil' boy, Stevie. To some people that's a long list but for my family -- its not even a scratch. I did miss; Lori, Danny, Jeremy, Kurt, Terra (and her brood) Great Uncle Jim, Chris, Kim, Tina, Chrissy, and who knows who else! But I did get to see all these people on Thanksgiving so, its not too terrible a loss, just a minor pang of, "aaaaawwww!" I still got to see my family, I ate a lot of food, got some presents, and had a few drinks. I helped Sidney with some puzzles and it was nice to spend the time with my younger cousin.
Farra watched me cross the street when I left because she was worried about me which though silly was sweet of her. I had a good time with my family!
Sunday I had to work again but I got picked up by Robbie and I spent Christmas Eve with him and Cynthia. I watched them open up the presents they had bought for each other, which was fun for me for some reason. I don't know, I like to see people be happy and the love those two have for each other is just endearing. Robbie felt bad because he hadn't been able to buy Cynthia as much because of his work situation. Cynthia had bought me another present, a thing of brownies that I plan on taking with me when I go down to Florida. I think it would be nice to have brownies in bed with James! =)
Robbie ordered some pizza and we all watched The Grinch with Jim Carry, a pretty funny movie actually. It was so cute to see the Grinch as a little kid anyway!! OMFG! But yeah, we opened up some flavored beer and had a toast but I couldn't drink it because it was ... well... nasty. All well on that. I still had fun! We all had been hanging out a lot recently, I'm glad to have them in my life. Its definitely something for me to be thankful for.
Work had been stressful but now things are going so well, I can't believe I had problems before. Today I was even offered a job by some random manager from another store, I was shocked and flattered. I do need another part time job so I'm going to call and try to arrange something maybe. Pretty awesome.
I've talked to Stacia on the phone, she's newly in love with a guy called Steve and we got to talking more; she told me how she had been feeling so depressed and down about everything. I comforted her and I'm making a promise now to call her at least once every other day. She needs to be reminded that she is loved and cared for. She should never feel that no one loves her; her Mom does, her sister does, and I do! Her Dad does and so many other people -- the important thing is for her to learn to at least, like herself. I learned that even if you can love yourself, you at least need to like who you are inside, no matter what.
You can hate your body, hate your face, hell -- hate your life sometimes but never start hating yourself. Don't hate that wonderful person inside that everyone else sees and loves. You don't always have to be happy with who you are and if there is a huge problem, try and change it. Try and live at least. Living is so important.
But yeah, I've had one of the best Christmas' I have ever had in ... almost three years. Maybe an exact three years to the day. My life is awesome, the people in it are awesome, and now I'm going to try and call my wonderful boyfriend.
Peace and Goodwill towards Men!
And Happy New Year!
We are leaves from the same tree but like those in Autumn, our colors are different and varied. Phae prefers the Winter to my Summer; enjoys the brisk bite of wind when I bask in the warmth of sunshine. I would much rather sweat then shiver and I hate my coat(s). I like the freedom of shorts and simple shirts or tanks, I get thrilled at the thought of jumping into clear blue, blue water for a perfect swim on a perfect Summers day.
For me Summer is a time to truly enjoy the night, when you can sneak off to a park, spread out a blanket and get a chance to lay out and count the stars. Long steamy walks that sometimes lead into steamy encounters. Ah, I long for Summer with a pining almost equal to that of my James.
But enough of all that! I just got to thinking all because of a journal entry I read.
My Holidays have been lovely! Almost perfect in fact, albeit busy, but then who isn't busy at this time of the year? Jaysus. I worked for most of it though I did get Christmas off, which I spent Christmas Day at home relaxing and sharing it with my Mom. I had thought about volunteering to work it since it would have brought me some big money home but I never got the chance. All well on that!
I did go over to my Aunt Kelly's after work on Saturday and while I missed most of everyone I did get to see; Michelle, Steve, Kelly, Tim, Farra, Sidney, Madison, Sofia, Summer, and Steve's lil' boy, Stevie. To some people that's a long list but for my family -- its not even a scratch. I did miss; Lori, Danny, Jeremy, Kurt, Terra (and her brood) Great Uncle Jim, Chris, Kim, Tina, Chrissy, and who knows who else! But I did get to see all these people on Thanksgiving so, its not too terrible a loss, just a minor pang of, "aaaaawwww!" I still got to see my family, I ate a lot of food, got some presents, and had a few drinks. I helped Sidney with some puzzles and it was nice to spend the time with my younger cousin.
Farra watched me cross the street when I left because she was worried about me which though silly was sweet of her. I had a good time with my family!
Sunday I had to work again but I got picked up by Robbie and I spent Christmas Eve with him and Cynthia. I watched them open up the presents they had bought for each other, which was fun for me for some reason. I don't know, I like to see people be happy and the love those two have for each other is just endearing. Robbie felt bad because he hadn't been able to buy Cynthia as much because of his work situation. Cynthia had bought me another present, a thing of brownies that I plan on taking with me when I go down to Florida. I think it would be nice to have brownies in bed with James! =)
Robbie ordered some pizza and we all watched The Grinch with Jim Carry, a pretty funny movie actually. It was so cute to see the Grinch as a little kid anyway!! OMFG! But yeah, we opened up some flavored beer and had a toast but I couldn't drink it because it was ... well... nasty. All well on that. I still had fun! We all had been hanging out a lot recently, I'm glad to have them in my life. Its definitely something for me to be thankful for.
Work had been stressful but now things are going so well, I can't believe I had problems before. Today I was even offered a job by some random manager from another store, I was shocked and flattered. I do need another part time job so I'm going to call and try to arrange something maybe. Pretty awesome.
I've talked to Stacia on the phone, she's newly in love with a guy called Steve and we got to talking more; she told me how she had been feeling so depressed and down about everything. I comforted her and I'm making a promise now to call her at least once every other day. She needs to be reminded that she is loved and cared for. She should never feel that no one loves her; her Mom does, her sister does, and I do! Her Dad does and so many other people -- the important thing is for her to learn to at least, like herself. I learned that even if you can love yourself, you at least need to like who you are inside, no matter what.
You can hate your body, hate your face, hell -- hate your life sometimes but never start hating yourself. Don't hate that wonderful person inside that everyone else sees and loves. You don't always have to be happy with who you are and if there is a huge problem, try and change it. Try and live at least. Living is so important.
But yeah, I've had one of the best Christmas' I have ever had in ... almost three years. Maybe an exact three years to the day. My life is awesome, the people in it are awesome, and now I'm going to try and call my wonderful boyfriend.
Peace and Goodwill towards Men!
And Happy New Year!