one of us is doing it wrong
yeah so, if you had excruciating pain in your back every time you walked upright, and it kept progressing and worsening with every attempt at activity, you'd go to a doctor. if the doctor suggested "stretching" and "heat", and you tried both, and got nowhere, you'd go back, right? right. so when you go back and explain that nothing is helping the situation and you still can't walk more than a few steps without having to bend over/sit down and rest to take the pressure off your lower spine, and your doctor suggested yoga, you'd feel a little puzzled, right?
i've been to my new doctor three or four times, trying to explain that -nothing- is helping me. OTC NSAIDs are useless; i'd succumb to ibuprofen or paracetamol toxicity before i got any relief, and naproxen sodium has zero effect on me whatsoever, even at over half a gram. you know how i know this? I'VE FUCKING TRIED IT ALL BEFORE AND IT DIDN'T WORK. i can't help but feel as if my best attempts at clear english are somehow being transformed in thin air before they hit my doctor's eardrums; what began as standard american english statements like, "the only time i have ever had relief is when i take an opioid painkiller and then go about normal or even heavy activity." are somehow changed in some foreign language and interpreted to mean, "give me a list of ideas! half of which i've already tried and have failed me, the other half of which are things i cannot possibly physically do!".
i can't seem to stop my attitude about this from deteriorating into offense. then again, perhaps my doctor doesn't understand that i find things like yoga personally invasive. it's too dangerous to attempt alone without supervision, so this means i'd have to take a class. problem is, i cannot tolerate being around groups of strangers for any prolonged duration. "prolonged" in this case is much anything past five minutes. i also likely can't afford said classes, especially considering there is absolutely no proof or substantiation whatsoever that yoga can actually alleviate myofascial pain. there is, however, plenty of evidence indicating that it can worsen existing conditions as well as create new ones. why on earth i'd want to throw money away on something that can worsen me instead of spend it on reliable painkillers is something i'll never understand.
it seems simple to me. take painkillers, exercise, lose weight off the front while rebuilding the back, then be normal. i've done it before. i've tried to explain that i've done it before. i know what works for me. another source of frustration is that i explained i'd been treated for PCOS with medroxyprogesterone without indicident. why then does she insist on putting me on norethindrone? it's just making everything worse. it's making me gain more weight, especially in the front, and it has completely removed my patience for coping with anything that slightly annoys me. it's also making me rag twice a month. this isn't "help".
makes me wonder why i bothered to put so much time into researching female endocrinology in the first place. but then i knew i could expect some degree of "problem" when she said, on the second visit, "...that's beyond my scope...".
i'm wasting $60 a month on access to limited medical services from this group, and so far it has done me no real good. it's just about as good as being without any medical coverage of any sort.