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so, go figure, it's my life, so everything has to hit rock bottom before it can get any better.
My last two days in a nutshell (aka, a 15-things post)
1- Dad flew to Denver with just a few days warning to the rest of us, when he's known for a couple months.
2- Matt and I had a minor arguement about #1.
3- Nick's roommate has been stealing money from him, so he will be moving back in.
4- Mother has decided she will sleep in the basement when #3 occurs.
5- Inseok, my iPod, has decided he hates being nice to me and is now being one of those minor annoyances that makes everything seem just a little bit worse.
6- We STILL have no food in the house except for seafood and junk food. I am seriously lacking a decent home-cooked meal.
7- found out about Maeven dying. yea THAT screwed up my day yesterday. and of course i had to find out in the morning so i had to go through all of my classes wishing i could go home and cry.
8- my music appreciation teacher looks like a guy who will hit on any student when left alone with him... including the old man in my class. he also seems hyperactive ( i was afraid he'd start hyperventilating in the middle of class O.O). PLUS, he can't spell. He wrote "religion" as "Religeon" and i was like, "dude, wtf?"
9- my math teacher is fucking worthless. shes never taught a 120 class before. she has no idea how the school website works, how Blackboard works, and how MathXL works (alll 3 sites being how we will be reciving our information and turning in most of our work for the course). She took 20 minutes to explain how two lines can make a graph which can miraculously hold dots and MORE lines and such. oh my god i wanted to walk out. AND! and and and!!! she doesn't even know half of the stuff we are supposed to learn. "If I don't know something, I will be going to one of the other 1020 teachers and asking for help, so they might be in here helping out a lot." I COULD TEACH THIS COURSE AND I SUCK WITH NUMBERS!!! dont get me wrong, i love the theory behind math and patterns and such, but if you give me actual numbers instead of variables, i fail so hard it would be impossible for me to fail harder.
10- I'm stuck in my Chinese class with a girl I can't really stand and Chester, MY ONLY HOPE FOR A SAVING GRACE, decided two weeks ago to back out of taking the class and is taking something else instead. fuck you ,too, buddy. now im stuck in there with just one person to talk to TT___TT but on a happier note, we may be getting dumplings next class for Lunar New Year's Eve~
11- so there is this korean band i love called LEDApple. I woke up in a good mood, all things considered, and after i took a nice long shower, i checked out twitter. wel fuck me five times over, I-OH, my favorite member, says he's leaving the group. he'll still be in the company, though. this fact alone, though, isn't what got to me. the reason why he left the group is because he got Tuberculosis. WHAT THE HELL, MAN?! DIDN'T YOU GET YOUR SHOTS LIKE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO?! I seriously almost broke down crying for him. tears were forming and everything. It was terrible. I hope he's ok and I wish his replacement (if they get one. they way he said it, it seems like they will be) the best of luck. now i have to worry and stalk his twitter to make sure he doesnt drop dead -.-
12- i finally started sleeping on the floor in my closet. yes, i realize how weird this sounds, but trust me when i say it's not that weird. hopefully i will eventually be buying a thin futon or something, but if i don't, im not to worried about it. i folded some blankets and made my own floorbed~ i like it. it's omfy. my friends are already threatenig me, though. I want to get rid of my mattress and bedframe so i have more space in my room, but they keep saying if i do, they wont sleep over anymore because they refuse to sleep on the floor. i say FINE! BE THAT WAY! i'll have the floor all to myself~<3
13- finally got to doodle on my painted-on chalkboard wall in my closet. i was just writing lyrics and stuff. next thing i know, it's full. when i step back to look at it... damn, it wasn't pretty. the lyrics were stuff i used to write in The Notebook that i had freshman year. i'm amazed that Notebook hasnt burst into flames from all the horrible, terrible, angry, judgemental, sucky, wretched things written in it...
14- It's official. I'm in a cult. They have finally stated it to the world. They've sent out A Call To Arms, turned to the world, and declared "This Is War." So we, as brothers and sisters of this new world we are creating, must Search & Destroy all those who fight against us and try to make the world worse. We will push them Closer To The Edge on the Night Of The Hunter and when they realize that they have no Escape, we'll become the rulers of 100 Suns. We need no Alibi, for we are the Kings And Queens, and on the Equinox, you will come to see we mean what we say and we will fight for a better world, no matter the cost to us. "The end is coming. Everybody run now. We're gonna live forever, gonna live forever tonight."
PROVEHITO IN ALTUM
15- POSITIVE NOTE: come march we MIGHT be getting a cat~
a song and some highly befitting lyrics for your time:
Hurricane - 30 Seconds to Mars (Featuring Kanye West... as much as I dislike this man, he isn't too bad in this song...)
Click to viewNo matter how many times that you told me you wanted to leave
No matter how many breaths that you took you still couldn’t breathe
No matter how many nights did you lie wide awake to the sound of the pausing rain
Where did you go? Where did you go? Where did you go?
Heart beat, a heart beat, I need a heart beat, a heart beat..
Tell me would you kill to save your life?
Tell me would you kill to prove you’re right?
Crash, crash, burn let it all burn.
This hurricane’s chasing us all underground...
No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget.
No matter how many lies that I live, I will never regret.
There is a fire inside that has started a riot about to explode into flames
Where is your God?
Where is your God?
Where is your God?
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead or alive?
To torture for my sins...
A heart beat, a heart beat, I need a heart beat
You know I gotta leave, I can’t stay, I know I gotta go, I can’t stay
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead or alive?
To live a lie...
Tell me would you kill to save your life?
Tell me would you kill to prove you’re right?
Crash, crash, burn let it all burn.
This hurricane’s chasing us all underground...
You say you wrong, you wrong, I’m right, I’m right, you’re wrong, we fight.
Ok, I’m running from the light, running from the day to night.
Oh, the quiet silence defines our misery.
The riot inside keeps trying to visit me.
No matter how we try, it’s too much history.
Too many bad notes playing in our symphony.
So let it breathe, let it fly, let it go,
Let it fall, let it crash, burn slow.
And then you call upon God
ohhh, You call upon God
Tell me would you kill to save your life?
Tell me would you kill to prove you’re right?
Crash, crash, burn let it all burn.
This hurricane’s chasing us all underground...
Oh Oh woah
This Hurricane
Oh Oh woah
This Hurricane
Oh Oh woah
This Hurricane
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead or alive?
To torture for my sins...
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead or alive?
To live a lie...
Running away from the light, running away from the light...