Nostalgia
On nights like tonight, where I'm up, but everyone else is sleeping, I ponder things that I probably shouldn't be pondering. I also wonder where my childhood friends are, and what they are up to, even though I haven't spoken to them in near 20 years. I get the urge to look up old boyfriends, old lovers, even just random people that I went to school/was in the Army/worked with briefly sometime in my life. I look for people from New Bremen (the old WoD chat), from The Gathering, from Yahoo. I guess it's just the urge to reconnect. I feel so disconnected from my life sometimes. There are days that is just doesn't feel real to me. I had a dream the other night that I was being choked to death. That dream seemed more real to me than the next work day since I worked in a somewhat fog due to lack of sleep.
I started allergy shots last month also. Hopefully, my allergy problems will start to abate a little. It's nice to actually be able to breathe.
So much to say, but I have always had problems putting it down in writing.
I started allergy shots last month also. Hopefully, my allergy problems will start to abate a little. It's nice to actually be able to breathe.
So much to say, but I have always had problems putting it down in writing.