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[nepenthy]

Just tell me, was i wasting all this fucking time, or am i over reacting to this experience, was this just a fucking game, was it all lies the whole time, or did you fucking get bored, was it easy making somone else feel like shit to feel better, more Superior, am i a dumb fuck to belive anything. Yes

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[nepenthy]

Kerri no one reads my journal and i was pissed off about alot of things at the time, i dont think your a slut and i wish i never posted that but since i dont know how to work this site i kind of could not do anything about it but i understand you have the right to be mad and have this super public besides everyone has the right to know your story because you werent the bad guy you have made me the happiest person kerri i love you you are right i could not handle sertant things and i am sorry to put you threw pain i mean all this time i thought you were happy with how we had things and you know we both had good and bad days i wish i could delet it from my journal i really do the thing is i had to let anger out but the movies thing was not really towared you it was toward almost everyone and i understand your relationship with your mom i dont think she brine washes you and i dont playmind games with you kerr you know that i just have been fucked up over little and big shit and i blew up because it just is really hard not having you in my life i know this was low and it was stupied and in all fareness i at least was in your life when you were going threw that pain and made sure that you knew i love you i could tell you were hurt and mentioned it many times and you blew it off saying it is not that bad and you would be really happy and we had fun or i know i did please dont let that stupied lj entry change the way you think about me i just freaked out because just the way you sound makes me think it is the end forever im really sorry kerri i know that dose not change the fact that you are pissed off and hate me most likely but i hope you understand or will mabey one day kerri you know i would never want to hurt you or feel pain when ever a person would talk bad about you it pisses me the fuck off and i make them know it please dont forget about me because of this you know me kerr all the things we went threw and did together i love you dont forget i love you