The Last Day (Way Back In February)
Before I get started on her trip in May, I need to finish up posting about mine way back in February.
Well, the trip started on a Wednesday and it ended on one as well. I had trouble sleeping the night before, so I was feeling kind tired. Fortunately, my flight wasn't until the afternoon, so we had some time to just relax a bit. Orchid showed me her ( Read more... )
First of all, I never stole anything or anyone from you. She never had interest in you, and the reason for that is not because of me. It's because of the fact that the first thing you did when you met her was lie to her face, and for that she has never been able to truely trust you (and this is what she told me before you started making an ass of yourself, when she actually considered you a good friend). You talk as if she was in love with you, but everyone except you knew that she had absolutely zero interst in you in that way. Yes, she was a very close friend to you, but friendship is all that she ever wanted from you. She could have chosen you a long time before but she didn't because she didn't want you, and she never did and, thanks to your little hissy fits, never will. If you could get your head out of your tail end and snap out of your little fantasy, you could actually see that.
There's more to love than just blurting out "I love you" and expecting the feeling to return as if it were her obligation to feel the same way about you as you did her (although the truth is finally known that you don't or ever cared about her, her feelings and her happniess, you just wanted to have everything your way and get what you want). For starters, there's actually caring about how the person you hold affections to feels, being happy for her happiness, even if it means being at the cost of your own wants. Last time I checked, harrassing people she cares about, spreading lies about her, shooting insults out at every person associated with her, trying to turn friends against her all weren't ways of being caring and thoughtful to her. You wonder why she doesn't have anything to do with you, a hint could be the fact that you call her a cheating whore and pick unprovoked fights, such as this comment you've left me that is clearly unrelated and irrelevant to my entry.
I love Orchid, and she loves me, and you're the only one who can't get that through your head. Just because I don't do the exact same things with her as I did in my last relationship doesn't mean I love her any less than my ex. I'm not going to rehash everything I did before with Orchid because she deserves better than to be treated as a replacement, she's her own person and I love her as her individual person, so I am going to do things differently and unique. In fact, I not only love her more than my ex, but I am also much happier with her as well. We've chosen to have a much closer and more intimate relationship instead of parading it around like a side-show for the world to see. Yes, you didn't see how our love built up, and that's because we chose to do it in the privacy of our IMs and phone calls instead of out in the open, because our love lives are of no concern to you. If you didn't notice, we've also been making more efforts to be together in person than I did in my last relationship, which should say something since I'm trying to be with her more than I did with my ex (whom, for your information, I do not love any longer and do not think of any more because, unlike you, I am capable of getting over lost love and move on with my life, something you seriously need to learn how to do).
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