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I ACTUALLY WATCHED SYTYCD!!!
I thought it was really fun. I have no idea who's gonna win. I have a feeling it might be Sabra, though.
Okay.
That contempo fox thing with Lacey and Sabra? I thought that was cool. It was interesting and I actually watched it. And I thought their outfits were pretty ( Read more... )
I thought it was really fun. I have no idea who's gonna win. I have a feeling it might be Sabra, though.
Okay.
That contempo fox thing with Lacey and Sabra? I thought that was cool. It was interesting and I actually watched it. And I thought their outfits were pretty ( Read more... )
Hi.
This is quite a coincidence because Jane just made a post about someone just going and completely deleting and blocking her, and I assumed it was you. And haha, so you were on my mind.
It bugs you every single mother fucking day? I thought you were over it. I thought you never really cared in the first place. I don't want this to be bitter, I really really don't. I'm so tired of this whole Heidi vs. Stacie thing. I mean, things have cooled down, and I haven't thought about you much (only when I stumble across you on LJ; we still have some things in common) and I've realized things. I've been less depressed since we ended our friendship. I've learned a lot of things about myself. You don't even know how much I've realized. I really have moved on. And your offer is tempting, it really is. I've had days where I've thought, "I just want to be her friend again". But then I think of myself when we were friends. How different I was. I'm not saying it was necessarily your fault for my state of mind, but perpetuating our relationship, it...limited me. And...I've moved on. I kinda have that Stacie-shaped hole in my heart, but I don't know if I should put you back in. It just doesn't seem right. It's like...I went through all that...just for us to be friends again? I mean, I don't want us to never speak again or whatever, I'm not the biggest grudge-holder, but...it was a big time for me. And it almost seems like regressing if I'm your friend again...
I'm sure you understand. It's totally not personal. We're not enemies, I don't want us to be. You can talk to me, I can talk to you, and I'm really glad you've come out with this...it eases some of the tension. But I think I need to think about this. It's...daunting. It doesn't seem like a big deal for you, but it is for me (as always XD), so. I dunno.
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