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3:20. what the hell am i doing up? eating corn chips with mozerella cheese and salsa, calming down from a three hour brain storm about the restaurant and all the possibilities of renovation and excavation and restoration - mostly of ourselves and a little for the building. and trying not to be aware of the fact that i've moved into some new stage of trusting this thing with this guy, and i know this by the way i'm staying awake, in part, so that i don't have the moment when i pull my legs up onto the bed and start lowering the rest of my body down onto the mattress and my head is pretty close to the pillows and i think 'it would be better if you were here'.
smoke a cigarette and go to bed.
smoke a cigarette and go to bed.