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Woke up early, took a shower, went about making breakfast. Felt like I might feel well rested when I finially woke up. The thing of note though is this kind of calm. Something in me making me move slowly and precisely. Making those choices I have to make everyday, which under normal circumstances wouldn't really matter if I didn't apply a certain mindfullness to them but in my case, it can mean the difference between a totally bullshit day of sleeping because I'm no good for anything else and being able to function at a near optimal level. So, the mindfullness, it takes commitment and focus, and I haven't felt that, or felt able to move that way in weeks. A certain grace and strength in the choices. It may come down to a seemingly unimportant decision like 'the pie is poison to you, do not even have a bite' , but that will make a difference in my day that is monumental. I don't know why I haven't really been on top of it. But there it is. A renewed sense of dedication to being healthy.
and the reason is derek, the van, moving my things into the space to work, his saying 'it seems like a priority' and that....vote...or...clarity in perceiving the priority, the backing up of that and the offer of help to make that happen. anyhow, thank you. it's huge what saying that meant.
morning.
and the reason is derek, the van, moving my things into the space to work, his saying 'it seems like a priority' and that....vote...or...clarity in perceiving the priority, the backing up of that and the offer of help to make that happen. anyhow, thank you. it's huge what saying that meant.
morning.