weird
ok yesturday i went to china town to spent mai christmas money!! hha well there was a sale there!! yippe!! i got lyke this superly cool bag, its lyke the roots ones, just cuter, its black and white, and it says delicious on it!! =D also at this anime/manda store i bought 4 mangas!! that would have cost me lyke 80ish$$ but they were having a sale so i got 4 for around 40$$!!!!!!! isnt that lyke superly cool!! i was soo happy! [they were all inu yasha mangas of course] i got volume, 8,13,15,nd 16.. in total i have 7 inu mangas, but i also have 2 bssm [stars], and 1 cardcaptors.. =D i CAN't wait till volume 17 comes out!![next month]
just finished filling out a survey that gigi sent me.. haha, it was way funni nd coolio.. btw if your reading this mai aunt says hi! nd merry x-mas.. tho its kinda late.. i really didnt do anythng speshol for xmass just doing the fam. thing..
ok yesturday in the middle of the night i woke up and felt sooo bad, lyke i swear i had a fever and i felt lyke throwing up and i was couging and mai nose was stuffed.. it lyked suck.. right now im so light headed.. i kept thinking that i was going to die.. lyke i had something really bad and i unno why.. waking up i was lyke i was soo stupid thinking i had sars or something... but at night i was lyke crying thinking that i would hate to leave and how much ive hurt mai friends, or how much i love mai family.. it was so weird.. all i could think about was leaving and just lyke treating mai friends bad, and mai family. i dont know why i thought that, i just did. i promised mai self i would try to act more nice to ppl i get into a fight w/..lmao...
recently ive been remembering some of mai dreams!![i havent since i was lyke 5] even tho i know we have about 40 dreams, i only members lyke 4 but b4 i never membered ne.. most of them consist of school stuph and how afriad i was of exams, and failing.. yesturday i member dreaming of inu yasha.. finishing the story i never got to read, thats all i member cuz i woke up agian.. i feel so different, i feel so afraid..
i miss having someone to talk to and tell them things.. on christmas i went to see mai grandfather, and he was in a bad condition, he could barely walk, he wasent feeling well plus the fact the he fell down on his head twice! i could barely look at him, i felt lyke crying, i guess you really know who you care about when you see them in bad conditions. i felt lyke an outsider.. i usually do in mai family. wen we get together, they all talk in italian and i have no clue what their saying so i just sit down and look at something for the next 2 hours. i dont know what this means anymore i feel so different before i didnt care what people would think of me, but lyke now i care what mai family thinks at least, i still dont care what the ppl at school think. i feel stupid at times because i never really gone out with someone, sure ive gone on dates or whatever you wanna call them but its not the same, all they want it to feel you up or w.e and i feel so tired of it.when i was young all mai aunt would tell me is that guys only want one thing from you [she had bad love experience]plus the media practiaclly saying the same thing, i grew up thinking if i didnt do anything they wouldnt lyke me.. i still do feel that way and thats why im so shy[haha shyISH] to ppl i dont know at least... i dont feel lyke spilling out mai feelings nemore...
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just finished filling out a survey that gigi sent me.. haha, it was way funni nd coolio.. btw if your reading this mai aunt says hi! nd merry x-mas.. tho its kinda late.. i really didnt do anythng speshol for xmass just doing the fam. thing..
ok yesturday in the middle of the night i woke up and felt sooo bad, lyke i swear i had a fever and i felt lyke throwing up and i was couging and mai nose was stuffed.. it lyked suck.. right now im so light headed.. i kept thinking that i was going to die.. lyke i had something really bad and i unno why.. waking up i was lyke i was soo stupid thinking i had sars or something... but at night i was lyke crying thinking that i would hate to leave and how much ive hurt mai friends, or how much i love mai family.. it was so weird.. all i could think about was leaving and just lyke treating mai friends bad, and mai family. i dont know why i thought that, i just did. i promised mai self i would try to act more nice to ppl i get into a fight w/..lmao...
recently ive been remembering some of mai dreams!![i havent since i was lyke 5] even tho i know we have about 40 dreams, i only members lyke 4 but b4 i never membered ne.. most of them consist of school stuph and how afriad i was of exams, and failing.. yesturday i member dreaming of inu yasha.. finishing the story i never got to read, thats all i member cuz i woke up agian.. i feel so different, i feel so afraid..
i miss having someone to talk to and tell them things.. on christmas i went to see mai grandfather, and he was in a bad condition, he could barely walk, he wasent feeling well plus the fact the he fell down on his head twice! i could barely look at him, i felt lyke crying, i guess you really know who you care about when you see them in bad conditions. i felt lyke an outsider.. i usually do in mai family. wen we get together, they all talk in italian and i have no clue what their saying so i just sit down and look at something for the next 2 hours. i dont know what this means anymore i feel so different before i didnt care what people would think of me, but lyke now i care what mai family thinks at least, i still dont care what the ppl at school think. i feel stupid at times because i never really gone out with someone, sure ive gone on dates or whatever you wanna call them but its not the same, all they want it to feel you up or w.e and i feel so tired of it.when i was young all mai aunt would tell me is that guys only want one thing from you [she had bad love experience]plus the media practiaclly saying the same thing, i grew up thinking if i didnt do anything they wouldnt lyke me.. i still do feel that way and thats why im so shy[haha shyISH] to ppl i dont know at least... i dont feel lyke spilling out mai feelings nemore...
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