Datalinks: 019.0466.002 - The nitemare of my life...

[neoomni]

It haunts me every where I go. Inevitably someone mentions about it. Or some reminder about it. Just every time...it re-awakens. My arms freeze up, my hurt gets heavy, and I just crumble. Whatever mood I was in goes to sadness. I can't forget. No matter how much I want to. I was used. It was the first time ever I was used in such a manner. I was used. I was cheated on. I was...not strong enough. It hurts. It hurts a lot. Forgiveness can only do so much. It was the best thing yet the worst thing of my life. I'm glad it happened but I wish it didn't happen the way it did. If there is one rememberance of 2004 it'll be this. My nerves can't forget. My heart can't heal. That's how it goes. But why must it always come back. Why can't I have a season of not being reminded? What do I do to deserve it? Is it a curse? I don't know but every time it comes back, I get paranoid. I feel like crawling into a ball and secluding myself from society. I feel suceptible...every time...

Mindi...
Venture Academy...

Just...the though of her, the thought of that school, the thought of where we went, the thought of the times we had...it all causes nightmares. It haunts me...