Oct 10, 2005 20:10
I have pictured this Saturday a hundred million times. I have editted my speech nearly as many times. I have had my heart race nearly that many moments in life. I have dreamed of the what if's, the could be's, the possibilities...
I can see it. I can feel it. However...something doesn't always feel right about it. I wish I knew what it was but I really don't like the feeling that much.
My heart condition has been killing me a lot lately. Today I felt the worst in ages. Pretty shitty and all that jazz. Oh man what not a good timing for that. Hopefully it'll get stronger for Saturday since I'll need every ounce of strength, energy, and enthusiam I have in me to make it rock the world since if I'm going down I will do it my way, in all my glory.
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