Nightmares
Wow I just had the worst round of nightmares i've had in a while. I hate that shit because now I know it's gonna be a while 'for I go back to sleep and I gotta be up early to go work at the beach house.
At least now I know what's missing from my life, Finally :-D, problem is fixing it...
Funny I rip on people for not changing their problems, but when it comes down to a problem that I have I seriously can't find a solution. It's almost not worth bitching about because it's fucking lame. I guess it's just the mindset that i'm in. Kinda like how I only want to LJ when i'm pissed off, or have absolutely nothing else to do and boredom has far exceeded its limit.
Its funny though because All day i'm happy and shit and overall i'm happy but it's just when I am alone and I allow myself too much time to think is when i get sad. I try to occupy my time with something but all tasks are rooted back to the same thoughts.
I should know how to fix the thought process by now, but it's almost as though I want myself to feel that way, it's the strangest sensation.
Other than the nightmares things are great. This week should be interesting, looking forward to having tomorrow off. I dont know what it is, but it seems like i get better sleep if I know I dont have to be up at a certain time the next day. For instance, if I know I have to wake up at 9 one day and I do, I can feel unrested when I wake up, but if I am just sleeping and have nothing to do that day, if perchance I wake up at 9 and decide it's time to get up, i feel completely rested.
damn i'm still shaking... what the hell is there to do at 3.40 in the morning?
At least now I know what's missing from my life, Finally :-D, problem is fixing it...
Funny I rip on people for not changing their problems, but when it comes down to a problem that I have I seriously can't find a solution. It's almost not worth bitching about because it's fucking lame. I guess it's just the mindset that i'm in. Kinda like how I only want to LJ when i'm pissed off, or have absolutely nothing else to do and boredom has far exceeded its limit.
Its funny though because All day i'm happy and shit and overall i'm happy but it's just when I am alone and I allow myself too much time to think is when i get sad. I try to occupy my time with something but all tasks are rooted back to the same thoughts.
I should know how to fix the thought process by now, but it's almost as though I want myself to feel that way, it's the strangest sensation.
Other than the nightmares things are great. This week should be interesting, looking forward to having tomorrow off. I dont know what it is, but it seems like i get better sleep if I know I dont have to be up at a certain time the next day. For instance, if I know I have to wake up at 9 one day and I do, I can feel unrested when I wake up, but if I am just sleeping and have nothing to do that day, if perchance I wake up at 9 and decide it's time to get up, i feel completely rested.
damn i'm still shaking... what the hell is there to do at 3.40 in the morning?