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I feel really really desensitized rght now. I dont know. that's not even the right word. I dont know. numb maybe. just. not good all around. I hate getting cut off mid-conversation. you have no idea whow much that pisses me off. to the point that I could cry from anger. and I hate when there's absolutely nothing I can do about it. when there're thingts that I need to hear before I finish a conversation and things that I need to have resolved. and it just pisses me off.
that having been said. I'm I dont know. repressing that seriously. cause that was just basically an explanation od it. but. repressing is good. today. I dont even remember today. I just remember a lot of freaking out about lab. and being upset. and. today was supposed to be a good day. but it just wasnt. it was terrible. and I hate that. afterschool.there were things that I should have been doing. things thatI didnt do. tomorow there's jsa. I'll do. I should go. I want to go. I dont know. I dont want to do anything right now. I just want to stay at home. and not deal with this. and thenafter afterschool I walked to mom's office. interesting walk. in which conversations were interrupted. stayed there a good 2 hours at least. and just got home a few minutes ago. and mom wants me to eat. and I dont want to.
I'm just going to find some angry music. and listen to it. I dont know. maybe not even angry music. but I was listening to sondre. and the calmness of it angered me. I dont know. I'm done here.
that having been said. I'm I dont know. repressing that seriously. cause that was just basically an explanation od it. but. repressing is good. today. I dont even remember today. I just remember a lot of freaking out about lab. and being upset. and. today was supposed to be a good day. but it just wasnt. it was terrible. and I hate that. afterschool.there were things that I should have been doing. things thatI didnt do. tomorow there's jsa. I'll do. I should go. I want to go. I dont know. I dont want to do anything right now. I just want to stay at home. and not deal with this. and thenafter afterschool I walked to mom's office. interesting walk. in which conversations were interrupted. stayed there a good 2 hours at least. and just got home a few minutes ago. and mom wants me to eat. and I dont want to.
I'm just going to find some angry music. and listen to it. I dont know. maybe not even angry music. but I was listening to sondre. and the calmness of it angered me. I dont know. I'm done here.