xxxXxCANDY!!xXxxx

[neonpinkpunk]

wow.. i went to another rave on saturday and rolled for the first time.. then i went and snorted a playboy bunny with this guy in the bathroom... great fun... and i madeout with this wierd gay guy.. and this other guy wouldnt keep his hands still... he was really wierd.. i didnt trust him for anything... and then i saw his face... ewwww.... i just wish that ruben and joel would've gone... then i wouldnt have made myself feel like such a slut... but yeah.. i was rollin and wasnt thinking, and yeah... iregret what i did.. but i cant change that now.. which sucks.. uber time.. but yeah.. nick and his new g/f were there, god i fucking hate them, and now since i wasnt exactly mean to them, he all thinks hes my friend. they are so stupid... she said that she drank some of some guys water, then she started acting funny and passing out and shit... shes soo stupid.. no one gave her anything... i mean who the hell would give out free drugs?? i wanna roll harder next time, and i wana be with ruben and joel.. but im not sure they even like me.. i think they like zeph a ton more than me.. just like everyone else.. why am i so ugly.. why cant i get hot guys??? (besides r&j) but yeah.. i dont think they want me so why try... blah...

skool is out on fiday.. yay.... i didnt realize it was that close.. wow.. i gotta finish a couple classes... like now... i wanna do something fun on wednesday.. hell... i wanna get drunk... like so drunk i wanna puke.... and i want to do it like right now...

yay.. i got more candy..
i need to get a job...
i want drugs and alcohol..
im really fucking sore..
its bright outside..
im gonna go sitdown and try to nap.... fun..