shit...
wow.. its been a while... but yeah, to pickup my crazy weekent a fewweeks ago... saturday i photographed a wedding with mom and made 50 more bucks... but afterwards, we went to my aunt's baby's (RyleeRaven's) dad's house in portland.. well not HIS house because he all just got outta jail and stuff.. but where he was staying.. it was a big nice house.. (WOW... SOMEONE IN MY CLASS JUST SAID THAT NICK ISNT COMING BACK TO SKOOL FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR BECAUSE HE'S ABOUT TO GET HIS ASS KICKED BY LIKE 30 PPL.. HE TALKS TOO MUCH SHIT.. HAHAHA THAT JUST MADE MY DAY:)..) ok.. back on the night that i spent there.. crazy crazy... ok april let me drive to the store with john (ravens dad) since he doesnt have a liscence-haha.. but yeah.. that night was crazy, i dont even know if i can explain.. but ill try.. there was like hardly any food in the house.. john is wierd.. like uncomfortably wierd.. : / but yeah.. in that house tracy, john, tracy's daughter, her daughter's friend that pretty much lives there, April, me, april's 2 kids, noah and ryleeraven, this guy chuck showed up (aparently hes tracy's ex husband and the girls dad or something.) and he was tweeking so she said he could hang in tha garage, and then this guy dropped his two kids off at like 1 in the morning so he could go do something (fucking druggies.. lol) they said that he left them there alot, which is kinda irresponseable.. but yeah.. me and april went and smoked a bowl on the back porch and then john came out in his shorts and a t shirt.. april was telling me that she didnt wanna sleep in the same bed as him, and i told her i didnt want noah in the same bed as him.. i jusa got some really bad vibes.. and then he came out asking if she was coming to bed, so we smoked a cigg, and he was still standing there waiting, and he had his arms crossed, eyes closed, started swaying back and forth and groaning... it was really wierd.. april was like im not sleeping in the same bed as you if your gonna make that noise all night.. and he kept doing it.. creepy.. he was wearing these huge ass shorts... and april was like i dont have ahy pj's do you have any sweats or something.. hes like i got shorts like these.. she's not as big as him and they were really big on him... and she told him that they were really big.. and hes like you know why i need them big... i need 'em big so my waist can breath. or some shit like that and the way they were acting i think something else got said that i didnt understand.. wierd.. but anyways.. even after we were done smoking, she sat there for a long time... and then did something she rarely ever does.. lit another cigg.. wow.. i knew something was up and i couldent do anything about it.. i felt bad.. anyweays...
i went to a rave for the first time on friday... zeph didnt get directions and thought we could call, or smething.. but we got lost for a long time, after they were late picking me and jordan up from the mall.. and i had to go in clothes with paint all over them, i had been painting props for ballet earlier that day, and stupid adam said that he would take me back to tacoma, but he never showed up so i was stuck there for a while and had to call my dad... aargh.. but yeah.. so i caled my mom and had her bring my normal shoes and money for the rave to the mall when i got there to wait with jordan, he got off at like 9:30 and they didnt pick us up till like 11... we got there at like one... finally.. there wasnt many ppl there.. i wanted someone to makeout with... but i was too shy(really) when i get around a bunch of ppl i feel ugly and unwanted and stupid shit because im stupid.. i finally just asked this guy, but he was gay.. that made me feel really good... not. so im like fuck it im gonna walk around and smoke, this cute guy that i saw earlier asked me for one.. it was my last so i shared it, he asked me if i was having fun, i said not as much as i wanted to , but so far it was ok.. and we pretty much just started making out.. and his really hot friend... god he's hot:P , walked by and like, put his hand on my head or something.. i wanted him.. :) but yeah.. pretty soon we all were in the guys b-room somehow, and all four of us were making out and stuff..... god it was great.. joel kept scratching my back and stuff.. aah... both guys and zeph were rollin' but i was the only one not, but i wanted to be.. but yeah... later joel was sitting and so i sat on him and started making out and stuff... god.. i wanted him soo bad.. i almost took him in the bathroom and fucked his brains out... i almost couldny controll myself... but no condom, and mom always says no unprotected sex.. lol.. and i wasnt about to fuck some guy i just met in the bathroom, and feel like an uber slut later, i really dont like feeling like a slut.. its depressing.. but yeah.. the boys live way the hell up in marysville, but my mom said that her friend julie lives near there so we could go up there and i could go hang out wigh them and sh could go see her friend. but yeah.. earlier me and grave had alot of fun making out bu ourselves upstairs... shit.. bell.. gotta go to forth per...:)
i went to a rave for the first time on friday... zeph didnt get directions and thought we could call, or smething.. but we got lost for a long time, after they were late picking me and jordan up from the mall.. and i had to go in clothes with paint all over them, i had been painting props for ballet earlier that day, and stupid adam said that he would take me back to tacoma, but he never showed up so i was stuck there for a while and had to call my dad... aargh.. but yeah.. so i caled my mom and had her bring my normal shoes and money for the rave to the mall when i got there to wait with jordan, he got off at like 9:30 and they didnt pick us up till like 11... we got there at like one... finally.. there wasnt many ppl there.. i wanted someone to makeout with... but i was too shy(really) when i get around a bunch of ppl i feel ugly and unwanted and stupid shit because im stupid.. i finally just asked this guy, but he was gay.. that made me feel really good... not. so im like fuck it im gonna walk around and smoke, this cute guy that i saw earlier asked me for one.. it was my last so i shared it, he asked me if i was having fun, i said not as much as i wanted to , but so far it was ok.. and we pretty much just started making out.. and his really hot friend... god he's hot:P , walked by and like, put his hand on my head or something.. i wanted him.. :) but yeah.. pretty soon we all were in the guys b-room somehow, and all four of us were making out and stuff..... god it was great.. joel kept scratching my back and stuff.. aah... both guys and zeph were rollin' but i was the only one not, but i wanted to be.. but yeah... later joel was sitting and so i sat on him and started making out and stuff... god.. i wanted him soo bad.. i almost took him in the bathroom and fucked his brains out... i almost couldny controll myself... but no condom, and mom always says no unprotected sex.. lol.. and i wasnt about to fuck some guy i just met in the bathroom, and feel like an uber slut later, i really dont like feeling like a slut.. its depressing.. but yeah.. the boys live way the hell up in marysville, but my mom said that her friend julie lives near there so we could go up there and i could go hang out wigh them and sh could go see her friend. but yeah.. earlier me and grave had alot of fun making out bu ourselves upstairs... shit.. bell.. gotta go to forth per...:)