i'm hopping on the "lj emo entry" bandwagon...

[neonluvchicken]

i need to let my emotions out before i implode.
why do i have such a difficult time w/ that?
the whole "ministering to others" part i got down.
it's just the whole "ministering to myself" part that i'm having problems with.

and i was going to say hopefully i'll last until wednesday w/o a meltdown, but i just failed.

i really want to let it out, but i feel like i'm being a bitch by doing it here...