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there are so many things running through my brain these days.
things from my past, that i regret or would change.
things from the present that are how i want them to be, or are just driving me insane.
things in the future i want to accomplish, experience, see, smell and touch.
this is odd... i'm moving away from everything i have spent 21 years creating. i am tired, and slightly beat down from all the tragedies and hardships that have come my way so far. part of me thinks i'm getting a clean slate. part of my doesn't know what to expect. and then there's that part of me... that part of my stomach that is in so much stressed out frazzled pain i can't eat nor can i sleep. i wonder how i'm going to get through these next two days. it seems like they are going so fast, but are going to last an eternity. really though, tomorrow morning when i wake up will be the last 48 hours of this chapter of my life.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOOOIIING!
this is going to be the most amazing time of my life!
who do i think i am anyway, moving to nyc. lol. seriously.
things from my past, that i regret or would change.
things from the present that are how i want them to be, or are just driving me insane.
things in the future i want to accomplish, experience, see, smell and touch.
this is odd... i'm moving away from everything i have spent 21 years creating. i am tired, and slightly beat down from all the tragedies and hardships that have come my way so far. part of me thinks i'm getting a clean slate. part of my doesn't know what to expect. and then there's that part of me... that part of my stomach that is in so much stressed out frazzled pain i can't eat nor can i sleep. i wonder how i'm going to get through these next two days. it seems like they are going so fast, but are going to last an eternity. really though, tomorrow morning when i wake up will be the last 48 hours of this chapter of my life.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOOOIIING!
this is going to be the most amazing time of my life!
who do i think i am anyway, moving to nyc. lol. seriously.