Chains like that can never be broken
I spent so much time crying yesterday.
I was on the phone with Mike until nearly 5:30 am, then had to be to work at 10:30 am.
To say that my heart is broken would be an understatement.
He is so upset with me
And I can't really blame him
But I can't go back to him at this point in my life
At least not yet
If we ever dated again, I am sure we would end up getting married
He says such sweet things to me
He tells me that no one will ever be able to treat me as well as I should be treated
He tells me that no one will ever love me the way that he loves me
He says that I am beautiful (and I believe that he thinks I am)
He tells me that he thinks about me all the time
He says that if he knew there was even a possibility we could end up together, he would wait forever for me
I don't want him to wait though
What if I find someone else?
It's not right to put someone else's life on hold while you sort things out
I thought that it was right to let him go
So he could date other girls
Or I guess they would be women
And the thought that someone else could ever make him smile makes me nauseous.
But I can't be with someone that I want to change
And this is what's right for me now
I won't be one of those people that worrys about how they are going to pay their bills
I know that with him, at this point in our lives, that is how it would be
I want to be comfortable, and I don't think that is a greedy thing to want
Today I found out that one of my friends is pregnant.
"Yeah, He got me" She said
She appears to be someone who would never consider not having a child
But it all seems so strange to me
Thank goodness I haven't permenently tied myself to someone like that
Chains like that can never be broken
I was on the phone with Mike until nearly 5:30 am, then had to be to work at 10:30 am.
To say that my heart is broken would be an understatement.
He is so upset with me
And I can't really blame him
But I can't go back to him at this point in my life
At least not yet
If we ever dated again, I am sure we would end up getting married
He says such sweet things to me
He tells me that no one will ever be able to treat me as well as I should be treated
He tells me that no one will ever love me the way that he loves me
He says that I am beautiful (and I believe that he thinks I am)
He tells me that he thinks about me all the time
He says that if he knew there was even a possibility we could end up together, he would wait forever for me
I don't want him to wait though
What if I find someone else?
It's not right to put someone else's life on hold while you sort things out
I thought that it was right to let him go
So he could date other girls
Or I guess they would be women
And the thought that someone else could ever make him smile makes me nauseous.
But I can't be with someone that I want to change
And this is what's right for me now
I won't be one of those people that worrys about how they are going to pay their bills
I know that with him, at this point in our lives, that is how it would be
I want to be comfortable, and I don't think that is a greedy thing to want
Today I found out that one of my friends is pregnant.
"Yeah, He got me" She said
She appears to be someone who would never consider not having a child
But it all seems so strange to me
Thank goodness I haven't permenently tied myself to someone like that
Chains like that can never be broken